My lupus is in remission. I now have reached a subclinical level of inflammation, no longer burning up with rheumathic fever. I'm picking myself up from the ashes and regenerate once again, just like the Phoenix bird. The creature of Hope.
The Phoenix bird is also the logo for Paranormal Investigation Experts or PIE, a group I have been following and joined forces with some weeks ago. Hector, the brains of the pair that founded the group, has a theory called the JUMP theory. Or in my language: 'HOPP teorin'. HOPP is a nordic word that in it's anglicised version is written HOPE. So for me the JUMP theory is also a message about HOPE for a better future. (You did know that english originates from Nordic language? There is a saying: 'You cannot be born, live or die without speaking Nordic' ...Isn't that true, geekgrl2019?)
But the story of the Phoenix bird also tells about the pain of recreation, renewal. Before it can be reborn, it has to burn up in fire. (Think also of the beloved hindu God Shiva, the Destroyer.) There is always going to be people who don't want things to change, because they have more to gain by preserving their own power. And so it is in this case too. Somebody is sendig blueclad zombiefied goons to harass Hector and Baron, and the same people is trying to prevent the JUMP from happening again. Probably 'Greyish' types. They will fail. Resistance is futile.
Call it Ostara, Eostre, Easter or what you will. Doesn't matter what religion, this time of year is significant. This is the season of hope, beginning NOW. The egg - a really strong symbol in myths of all cultures. On the outside it looks like a dead stone (and often is camoflaged that way too, in pattern and colour) but from it comes life or a new way of life. Ptah the creator shaped the world egg in Egyptian myth. And many more cultures muse about the world beeing shaped from an egg. My own ancestors, the finnish, too. The druids say the egg is not from a bird but from a snake or dragon.
Wales, Cymry, is the land of the red dragon. I went to Aberystwyth at Lughnasadh the same day as my initiation in the Dan yr Ogof caves, to look at the Black Book of Carmarthen. Later I found what the welch call an dragon egg at the beach. It is egg shaped, smooth, white and a little translucent, looks like stone. I hold it when I need to calm down and think. The dragon who is born from it some day, I hope, is me.
The egg we are hunting now is the next JUMP. Weather the mysterious egg comes out of the butt of a bird, snake, fish or dragon, we will find it and open it. No strange organisation will be able to stop PIE. It is the oldest story in the mythology book, (or clay tablet) and our thoughts and expectations have power. What we can believe in, we can make happen, we can create. Just think of all the inventions that science fiction writers have dreamed up, that inspired researchers and were realised.
I have a dream!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Homesick for the river.
The ways people use surgery to alter their bodies, is not what I would choose. Sure I care if people think I look good or not but It's not my dream to be beautiful. I would wish to enhance myself not for looks but for practicality. I want fur. Not a fur coat from butchered animals, but my own fur growing from my skin. Fur like that of an otter, all over, the face too. That would protect me against the cold, water proof fur. And claws, a cute black nose and whiskers, a tail and all. I would spend all my time in the wilderness, half of it in the water.
I love rivers, rapids. Best time I ever had was in the river-rafting class, when we had to jump into the rapids of Kukkola to try out what we had learned about getting to the shore. I had a helmet and lifejacket on, and keept my body at the surface with my feet pointing downstream, and just followed the current. Like that old man in the daoistic story, I didn't fight the rapid I tried to 'be' it. I didn't use energy to swim against it, I trusted the river and it broght me to the shore.
I have grown up by the riverside, the Torne river. I don't feel right living away from an unbound river. The regulated tamed streams are not rivers. When I worked a summer at the museum Vollerim 6000 I lived by an heavily regulated river. I dreamt nightmares where the spirit of the river was crying for help, tortured and in pain and despair, and I blew the dams up in my dream. I didn't feel right there. Or here. You can take the girl out of Torne river but not Torne river out of the girl.
I still remember the day you said: 'the river flowing through your head would take you far or leave you dead', and all you said was true.
I love rivers, rapids. Best time I ever had was in the river-rafting class, when we had to jump into the rapids of Kukkola to try out what we had learned about getting to the shore. I had a helmet and lifejacket on, and keept my body at the surface with my feet pointing downstream, and just followed the current. Like that old man in the daoistic story, I didn't fight the rapid I tried to 'be' it. I didn't use energy to swim against it, I trusted the river and it broght me to the shore.
I have grown up by the riverside, the Torne river. I don't feel right living away from an unbound river. The regulated tamed streams are not rivers. When I worked a summer at the museum Vollerim 6000 I lived by an heavily regulated river. I dreamt nightmares where the spirit of the river was crying for help, tortured and in pain and despair, and I blew the dams up in my dream. I didn't feel right there. Or here. You can take the girl out of Torne river but not Torne river out of the girl.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Moonbathing & nightswimming.
This early in the spring everyone is as fishbelly-pale as I am. Later, I will stand out in a crowd beeing the only one still with a snowtan. I have to wear hats when I go out in the daylight and it makes me feel like Greta Garbo: "I want to be alone!" (Don't come any closer, I'm strange, mysterious and aloof. It's not that you don't like me, I didn't like you first!)I didn't choose to be a goth, it pretty much just comes naturally with the whole 'stay out of the sun' Lupus regime. And a black hat suits a hex.
But I have bought a new bikini! It's a monochrome black Panos Emporio, inspired by punk, with lots of nice details. The bottom has a scottish kilt inspired supershort skirt. I will wear it moonbathing on the deck of Coleridge, a Leisure 23 sailingboat. And nightswimming in the lake in the forest.
At midsummer, the Arctic Cirkle, midnight, the sun is weak. It almost sets at the horizon, stops, and then rises again. I like that month. If I can choose I sleep at daytime and stay up all nights instead... A very romantic time, that midnight sun time of the year.
But I have bought a new bikini! It's a monochrome black Panos Emporio, inspired by punk, with lots of nice details. The bottom has a scottish kilt inspired supershort skirt. I will wear it moonbathing on the deck of Coleridge, a Leisure 23 sailingboat. And nightswimming in the lake in the forest.
At midsummer, the Arctic Cirkle, midnight, the sun is weak. It almost sets at the horizon, stops, and then rises again. I like that month. If I can choose I sleep at daytime and stay up all nights instead... A very romantic time, that midnight sun time of the year.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Who is NOT a doll?
Since about a week back I have been blogging about relationships, about dreams: ones own, and the dreams of other people. Earlier I have blogged about the TV show Dollhouse and how it's a microcosm of society. It is, both when they are in there and the assignments the actives are sent out on. All are great material for discussion. My thoughts are occupied with questions about freedom, individualism, relationships and the capitalist consumerist society. Not that I believe the alternative (communism) is better! That's not what I'm on about. I just think we should take a good look at our own programming. Because we Are. Heavily. Programmed.
I guess that if I had paid any attention to literature class when we went over Ibsen's play 'A Dollhouse', I would be able to show off with references to it. Sadly, back then I thought that the society and family the play mirrored was extinct or severely injured and dying from the process of progress, and paid it little attention. But now it's all backlash! If the game's changed any, it is only because men now are used in the same way as only women used to be in old patriarchal society (in the open at least). We now have not a non patriarchal society, but new patriarchal society. Call it the Culture of Death or just 'Gray'. Just notice, please...
I guess that if I had paid any attention to literature class when we went over Ibsen's play 'A Dollhouse', I would be able to show off with references to it. Sadly, back then I thought that the society and family the play mirrored was extinct or severely injured and dying from the process of progress, and paid it little attention. But now it's all backlash! If the game's changed any, it is only because men now are used in the same way as only women used to be in old patriarchal society (in the open at least). We now have not a non patriarchal society, but new patriarchal society. Call it the Culture of Death or just 'Gray'. Just notice, please...
Snowboard Sister Sun
So I was talking to my old snowboard sister Sun and she was all nostalgic about the old days and the gang. I can remember some less fun stuff too, althought most of it seem funny afterwards. I was StraightXEdge then, but the gang wasn't... (They didn't smoke anything at least, ftw.) They figured that my potential to get free drinks from guys was going to waste. So they insisted that I walk up to guys, and the guy would then buy me a beer and I would say thanks, walk away with the beer and give it to them. I argued that I felt sorry for the guys that was supposed to pay for their beers. They replied that the kind of guys that buy girls beer just do it in the hope that the girl will later get into bed with the them. And so the beer-buyers where total sleezes anyway, and deserved this, it was like an feminist fine or something.
Another thing they wanted us girls to do was to make friends (flirt) with famous snowboarders (like Johan Olofsson) and then introduce the gang. Yaiks. I'm not a groupie... (And I seem to fall hard for skiiers not snowboarders anyway, looking at past records.)
But I miss the snow. Me, Sun, and the snow. Bliss.
Another thing they wanted us girls to do was to make friends (flirt) with famous snowboarders (like Johan Olofsson) and then introduce the gang. Yaiks. I'm not a groupie... (And I seem to fall hard for skiiers not snowboarders anyway, looking at past records.)
But I miss the snow. Me, Sun, and the snow. Bliss.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Not my Dream
Had to watch boring un-interactive tv entertainment last night,
to be 'social' (which I'm not beeing when I use the computor,
they say -_-).
But it payed off!
I got to see Thomas Di Leva say:
'That's their Dream.'
Those words will stay with me for ever...
Di Leva ftw!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Unorganize
"We don't want an organization. What is organic needs no organization. You build from without, we build from within. You use yourselves as building stones and fall apart outside and in. We are built up from the inside like a tree, and bridges grow between us that are not of dead materials and dead force. From us life itself issues. In you whatever is lifeless enters."
Kallocain p.90
This qoute explains my reluctance to be properly organised in any form. I never entered Ordo Serpentis, but lingered in the Conspirare forum. The gang and the goverment is no different, they make me 1% or how was it put by Jane's Addiction?
Antisocial, I am. Unable to 1)Organize & 2)Keep secrets.
I like secrets, to reveal them not to keep them. There are no truly Secret Organisations. Not secret to the allseeing E.Y.E. :-)
The only truly secret organisations are the ones that doesn't exist. Like the Kallocain qoute says. In the spirit of Daoism and Kropotkin-Anarchism.
No one is an island. No, I'm not Ibiza, not even Svalbard (more in line with my carachter than Ibiza? lol) Besides, C.G. Jung said some people are like islands, but even they are connected with everything else, beneath the sea. On a archetypical level of consciousness. On the deepest level all of humanity is ONE. (Maybe there are even deeper levels, where animals and all kinds of life, even plantlife, is ONE. In that case I think only the aboriginals is connected to that. Dreamtime, they call it. As an ecosystem even 'dead things' like snow & wind are connected to everything else, of course.)
Hm, just dawned on me... Hazel could be on Svalbard now. But my best guess on where there is an Dollhouse in scandinavia is Tromsø, Norway. I'ts close to Bardufoss, and the American military precence is strong there. It has the Worlds most northenmost University and a University hospital with research in biomedicine and psychiatry. I know about this because CosmiC lives there,I have often visited Troms in the past. He was acting very strange when he was in military sevice, I then believed they where testing out some kind of experimental drug in Bardufoss. (...We where ingaged at that time but I broke it off due to his irratic behavoiur and went back to CubiC.) ...I'm just speculating, but I'm guessing actives could be sent into Russia from there. In my opinion it has to be Tromsø. Or what if Tromsø is 'the attic'?
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Really NEW, or just a bit new?
People say they want something NEW but they generally mean something that is 99% old and 1% new. Give them something about 9% NEW, and they don't even bother to make an effort to find out what it's about. Or worse: they get angry, frustrated and confused. This is a fact known by most artist and something that is very stunting in the creative process - at least when one has to take in account that money has to be made in some way off the stuff one is creating. Of course there is the audience of other artists, that are very supportive and apprechiating, but they are probably not millionares... Too small of a following.
I admire anyone who is trying to get something really NEW out there under these circumstances. I symphatize with all who despite these conditions still try to be creative, and are hoping for some little progress to be made. My heart goes out to the ones who have made it big, but now are chained to their past creations by an loving fanbase, and the corporations that expect them to make money off these fans.
So this New Age that is supposed to have begun, the Age of Aquarius, why isn't it supporting more real change?
I admire anyone who is trying to get something really NEW out there under these circumstances. I symphatize with all who despite these conditions still try to be creative, and are hoping for some little progress to be made. My heart goes out to the ones who have made it big, but now are chained to their past creations by an loving fanbase, and the corporations that expect them to make money off these fans.
So this New Age that is supposed to have begun, the Age of Aquarius, why isn't it supporting more real change?
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Spiral
In my mind I have started to compare the Dollhouses to Mojo's Mojoverse. Mojo might be revolting, but he created the coolest supervillain ever, Spiral. And he does know how to put on a show.
Spiral is just amazing, her powers and how she use them - dancing! Her look: colours, style, beeing cyborg but yet using magic. She fights, she's a scientist, artist and whatnot. Six arms! In this picture she is looking a lot 'Valkyrish' too...
...But Spiral is, of course, quite insane and not somebody I identify with. No, not Emma Frost or Magik either, I have always identified with... Rogue!
Spiral is just amazing, her powers and how she use them - dancing! Her look: colours, style, beeing cyborg but yet using magic. She fights, she's a scientist, artist and whatnot. Six arms! In this picture she is looking a lot 'Valkyrish' too...
...But Spiral is, of course, quite insane and not somebody I identify with. No, not Emma Frost or Magik either, I have always identified with... Rogue!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The Dollhouse is a microcosm
Mike James put it well in his vid, which I watched now when its featured in the recently updated previous section of the Mnema R Prime-Lab site. "All the world is a stage, and the world is a lab - with drugs in it!"/Mike James
I think the Dollhouse is a microcosm.
And what does it say about us? If I judge from the Dollhouse episode 4, Gray Hour: That we are obsessed by beeing our 'best' or always trying to be. We think we should exercise because it's good for us, and always obey the doctors, take the drugs and treatments we are prescribed so that we better can preform the roles chosen for us to make profit for some amoral corporation. (This is starting to sound like it will be some kind of existensialist or marxist analysis. :-P my biodad and grandpa & granny would have been proud... or are proud in the spiritworld.)
...And anything traumatic can be cushioned by 'throw pillows and perfectly crunchy salad'...?? Not really, tv-'Topher'.
Aristotle said some people are born to be slaves. Caroline, when she volontered to be ECHO in tv-Dollhouse, said she didn't really have a choice. (I wonder what she meant by that.) She is now really beginning to resist the wiped state. I guess she wasn't born to be a slave...
Tv-'Topher' notices the dolls herd-behaviour. That reminded me of what Aldous Huxley wrote on Hitler's strategy on how the masses could be controlled, in his book Brave New world Revisited. Huxley calls it heard entoxication, heard poisoning. When you go with the mainstream and loose your individual self, you loose your critical ability. To Hitler, intellectuals were useless.
I only hope I will be utterly useless to the Gray... That's my life's mission! That's why I'm known as H2O hexagon, snowcrystal. I'm on my own so I won't be broken. It's cold and lonely, but I stay me.
My other blogpost on the 4:th Dollhuse episode, Gray Hour: The Dollhouse on Tv
I think the Dollhouse is a microcosm.
And what does it say about us? If I judge from the Dollhouse episode 4, Gray Hour: That we are obsessed by beeing our 'best' or always trying to be. We think we should exercise because it's good for us, and always obey the doctors, take the drugs and treatments we are prescribed so that we better can preform the roles chosen for us to make profit for some amoral corporation. (This is starting to sound like it will be some kind of existensialist or marxist analysis. :-P my biodad and grandpa & granny would have been proud... or are proud in the spiritworld.)
...And anything traumatic can be cushioned by 'throw pillows and perfectly crunchy salad'...?? Not really, tv-'Topher'.
Aristotle said some people are born to be slaves. Caroline, when she volontered to be ECHO in tv-Dollhouse, said she didn't really have a choice. (I wonder what she meant by that.) She is now really beginning to resist the wiped state. I guess she wasn't born to be a slave...
Tv-'Topher' notices the dolls herd-behaviour. That reminded me of what Aldous Huxley wrote on Hitler's strategy on how the masses could be controlled, in his book Brave New world Revisited. Huxley calls it heard entoxication, heard poisoning. When you go with the mainstream and loose your individual self, you loose your critical ability. To Hitler, intellectuals were useless.
I only hope I will be utterly useless to the Gray... That's my life's mission! That's why I'm known as H2O hexagon, snowcrystal. I'm on my own so I won't be broken. It's cold and lonely, but I stay me.
My other blogpost on the 4:th Dollhuse episode, Gray Hour: The Dollhouse on Tv
Monday, March 09, 2009
2109
Take a look this article about IT in 2109: Part 1:Qantum Entanglement, Mini Black Holes and Nanotech & Part 2: Living Quantum Computers, Mind Reading PCs, and DNA nanofiber CPUs.
...Conspirits will get the 2109 reference, sorry if anyone feels left out but it's an interesting article anyway. [Och conspiriter som glömt: gå till Conspirareforumet och sök på 2109! Förr eller senare blir det relevant igen...eller så inte. Vad vet jag? :-P]
Anyway, just to make it a bit clearer, there was speculation about 2109 beeing some part of The Others, or then again not. (temponauts, technomages, Thelema probably: '93' references, from the future?) They were helping Conspirits out with enochiana in a previous case, the Marika/Maria case as I call it. 2109 were tricksterish, manifesting themselves with jumbled messaging through computors. 2109 seemed to posess humor and poetry, thus we decided early on that they were not likely associated with the Grey. One could always hope they will help out again if they think we are touching upon a case that they view as important enough for them to interfere in. I think this case ought to have awakened their interest with it's future-changing potential. But why do they call themselves '2109'? I never got that. Back then I didn't get the '93' thing eighter, when it was so easy to research. 'Will' and 'love' doesn't exactly sound menacing... And what was that Metatron (=Thoth?) business, was it at all important? Metatrons Cube is cute tho', it looks like an hexagon from this angle!
Ah, well... angles, Angels...
...In my defence, it's not my cup of tea. I'm more of a 'Noaidi' kinda Hex, even if it probably comes down to the same thing in the end? Well someone adviced me to look better into it so now i tried a little. I'll try not to get in their way at least. There must be ppl better suited for that technomage stuff. I love author Michael Ende's The Never Ending Story. (...the book not the film, for Hel's sake!) But I'm not sure it's at all connected to 93. ;-P
...Or if any of it is connected to this current mission, more than by those concidered-as-hoaxes-vids at R prime-lab site from user 13 and those appearences of nickname 93 in the chat.
...Conspirits will get the 2109 reference, sorry if anyone feels left out but it's an interesting article anyway. [Och conspiriter som glömt: gå till Conspirareforumet och sök på 2109! Förr eller senare blir det relevant igen...eller så inte. Vad vet jag? :-P]
Anyway, just to make it a bit clearer, there was speculation about 2109 beeing some part of The Others, or then again not. (temponauts, technomages, Thelema probably: '93' references, from the future?) They were helping Conspirits out with enochiana in a previous case, the Marika/Maria case as I call it. 2109 were tricksterish, manifesting themselves with jumbled messaging through computors. 2109 seemed to posess humor and poetry, thus we decided early on that they were not likely associated with the Grey. One could always hope they will help out again if they think we are touching upon a case that they view as important enough for them to interfere in. I think this case ought to have awakened their interest with it's future-changing potential. But why do they call themselves '2109'? I never got that. Back then I didn't get the '93' thing eighter, when it was so easy to research. 'Will' and 'love' doesn't exactly sound menacing... And what was that Metatron (=Thoth?) business, was it at all important? Metatrons Cube is cute tho', it looks like an hexagon from this angle!
Ah, well... angles, Angels...
...In my defence, it's not my cup of tea. I'm more of a 'Noaidi' kinda Hex, even if it probably comes down to the same thing in the end? Well someone adviced me to look better into it so now i tried a little. I'll try not to get in their way at least. There must be ppl better suited for that technomage stuff. I love author Michael Ende's The Never Ending Story. (...the book not the film, for Hel's sake!) But I'm not sure it's at all connected to 93. ;-P
...Or if any of it is connected to this current mission, more than by those concidered-as-hoaxes-vids at R prime-lab site from user 13 and those appearences of nickname 93 in the chat.
Dollhouse 'Topher' VS Toph
I have recently watched the full episode Grey Hour and got thinking. Just what kind of person are we dealing with here?
I'm thinking about the possibility of identity theft in one way or another.
1) - What if R corp found Tophs abilitys useful, but his idealism disturbing... Couldn't they just have copyed his 'mentat'skills and edited out the idealism, and imprinted Toph with the altered version of himself? (Explaining his amoral stance as portrayed in tv-series Dollhouse, if the fiction is anything to go by...)
2) -Or, if they imprinted altered Toph on a doll, wiping real Toph and making him one of the dolls in there, or one that became selfaware and escaped?
-But then my old infiltrator theory:In the tv-series things keep getting wrong and 'Topher' is always acting like he's just making minor mistakes, or there is someone else interfering. In Gray Hour he's all defensive, and blaming his own impulsive nature for 'mistakes'(00:23:30-00:26:05)but what if the slackerish exentric thing is a cover up.
Could Toph be infiltrating Dollhouse? I mean real Toph in real Dollhouse. And secretly trying to sabotage R-corp? And what about the whole Hazel thing, and possibly Toph monitoring the Mnema R prime lab site? (someone is!)Just think about it, R-corp was going to go ahead with the project anyway. Most damage can be done from the inside...
I'd just rather have Toph on our side, but if he's not, then we have to make plans how tho deal with him. Like plan A, B, C, D, E, - Z...
If I'm right about identity-theft theory: 2) we'd have one version of Toph with us, and a R-corp version against us. TWO of them. Like an good and evil twin thing...
The discussion goes on... And on...
I'm thinking about the possibility of identity theft in one way or another.
1) - What if R corp found Tophs abilitys useful, but his idealism disturbing... Couldn't they just have copyed his 'mentat'skills and edited out the idealism, and imprinted Toph with the altered version of himself? (Explaining his amoral stance as portrayed in tv-series Dollhouse, if the fiction is anything to go by...)
2) -Or, if they imprinted altered Toph on a doll, wiping real Toph and making him one of the dolls in there, or one that became selfaware and escaped?
-But then my old infiltrator theory:In the tv-series things keep getting wrong and 'Topher' is always acting like he's just making minor mistakes, or there is someone else interfering. In Gray Hour he's all defensive, and blaming his own impulsive nature for 'mistakes'(00:23:30-00:26:05)but what if the slackerish exentric thing is a cover up.
Could Toph be infiltrating Dollhouse? I mean real Toph in real Dollhouse. And secretly trying to sabotage R-corp? And what about the whole Hazel thing, and possibly Toph monitoring the Mnema R prime lab site? (someone is!)Just think about it, R-corp was going to go ahead with the project anyway. Most damage can be done from the inside...
I'd just rather have Toph on our side, but if he's not, then we have to make plans how tho deal with him. Like plan A, B, C, D, E, - Z...
If I'm right about identity-theft theory: 2) we'd have one version of Toph with us, and a R-corp version against us. TWO of them. Like an good and evil twin thing...
The discussion goes on... And on...
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Cristopher Brink Astro!
Name: Cristopher Brink
January 27 1981
Los Angeles, CA
Rising Sign is in 24 Degrees Taurus
Calm and deliberate, you hate to move quickly or act hastily. Very practical, every effort must count or you can't be bothered. Patient, persistent and steady, but very stubborn -- you can't be pushed or pressured into anything. You seem outwardly self-assured because you tend to repress your inner tension and turmoil. You exude an earthy warmth, friendliness and charm. You demand comfortable surroundings and appreciate the good life. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent. At times, you are lazy and difficult to motivate. Overcoming inertia is a problem for you and, because you are not by nature a self-starter, it is often necessary for you to receive stimuli from others in order to get moving.
Sun is in 07 Degrees Aquarius.
You get bored with the status quo and are generally open to new things and ideas. An individualist and a free spirit, your friends are quite important to you as long as they do not try to tie you down by making too many emotional demands on you. Your thoughts are offbeat and you're a bit eccentric, but not always very changeable. As a matter of fact, you can be quite stubborn at times. Very fair-minded when dealing with large groups or broad issues, you are not always emotionally sensitive to the needs of individuals. Extremely objective, with good powers of observation, you would be qualified to study technical and complicated subjects, like science, computers or maybe even astrology.
Moon is in 04 Degrees Scorpio.
Your feelings are very intense, never superficial. You tend to be either very angry or very sad or completely and totally happy. Your moods are deep, extreme and not always completely understood by yourself or by those with whom you have to deal. Emotionally, you tend to prefer to live at the cutting edge of life, pushing your reactions to the ultimate extremes, even if the results are dangerous or upsetting. You are easily jealous and very suspicious -- you require a great deal of emotional reassurance. A good detective, you are very curious about deep and mysterious things, especially human nature and motivations. Be careful not to be ruthless, tactless or too overly frank or you will meet with much resistance from others.
Mercury is in 24 Degrees Aquarius.
You tend to be very opinionated -- you have strongly felt notions about things and are quite vocal about expressing and defending them. Yet you are also an original thinker -- you enjoy shocking others with your offbeat, original thoughts. You appreciate and need mental and intellectual stimulation. Your judgment is usually fair and impartial -- you can be a good critic because you can remain objective and unemotional about most things.
Venus is in 20 Degrees Capricorn.
You tend to keep your feelings under control -- emotions are only released in serious or important situations. You are distrustful of others whose behavior could be judged excessive or immoderate. As such, you prefer to relate only to those who are older than you or to those whose position is such that respect and duty are more important for both of you than passion or emotional response. Be careful, however, of relationships that are merely based on practicality or utility or you will ultimately be lonely.
Mars is in 21 Degrees Aquarius.
Your ideas and opinions are usually inventive and original, but sometimes they are merely eccentric and offbeat. You are altruistic -- you will work hard for the attainment of group goals, as long as they meet your high standards. You tend to resent traditional authority figures because you think that your ideas are better thought out and more valuable than theirs. Very idealistic, you are a rebel WITH a cause!
Jupiter is in 10 Degrees Libra.
You are generally good at balancing opinions and judging issues, but you tend to be indecisive when it comes to making up your own mind. You are objective and quite concerned with fair play and justice. But, when it comes to yourself, you are so aware that whatever you do might upset the apple cart that you often choose to compromise rather than do anything that might make you lonely or vulnerable. Relationships are very important to you -- you learn about yourself and grow through observing yourself interacting with others. Your aesthetic tastes are refined, but expansive and expensive.
Saturn is in 09 Degrees Libra.
Although you take quite a while to make decisions, you usually consider all sides to a question, all the pros and cons, and the solution you come up with is very often the correct one. You tend to be very reserved and shy, but, once you make a commitment to someone (in either a business or personal relationship), the partnership is forever. You have a strong sense of justice and fair play and greatly respect the laws and institutions by which you are governed. As such, you are outraged when others break laws or show contempt for authority.
Uranus is in 29 Degrees Scorpio.
You, and your peer group, demand to confront life at its deepest and most meaningful levels. Very compulsive and obsessive in your approach to everything, you will avoid anything that is casual or superficial, especially when it comes to relationships. You will seek out and explore new methods of healing as well as different ways to deal with deep-seated emotional problems.
Neptune is in 23 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village."
Pluto is in 24 Degrees Libra.
For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered into lightly.
N. Node is in 10 Degrees Leo.
You prefer to take the leadership role when it comes to dealing with others. You enjoy administering and organizing group activities. Others tend to listen to your suggestions because you aren't usually overly domineering or patronizing in your interactions. You love to entertain in a big way -- you're at your best when throwing a large and lavish party. Your popularity and social success are assured as long as you don't take others for granted -- resist the temptation to become snobbish and arrogant.
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*Thx 2 ASTROLABE!
*This horoscope is conflicted... Mainly between the emotional and intellectual personality traits. There is stuff in there that seems to confirm some of Dr. Roses observations and fits quite well on how Toph-wedge-99 was. Some things contradict the fictionary tv-Dollhouse Topher, that was in Dr. Roses assesment too: like the strong idealism. I tried Astrolabe on myself and some of my friends and found it fairly accurate.
...Toph is also born in the Year of the Monkey and under the Rowan Moon:
Celtic Astrology
Rowan tree people have visionary minds and well defined humanitarian principles. They remain, however, self contained individuals and their vision is not always shared by the rest of humanity. Their cool temperament disguises some passionate beliefs, for they need to argue their case against bigotry and ignorance. The new moon people born during the first two weeks tend to become impatient and frustrated in this struggle toward a greater awareness. Although they may be quite reticent on a personal level, they will, nevertheless, help pioneer great social changes with reforming zeal.
Chinese astrology
Resourceful, Charming, Persuasive, Amusing, Sociable, Cunning.
The always charming, super-energized Monkey is the partier of the Chinese Zodiac. Monkeys have an insatiable appetite for fun and activity. Having a good time comes very easily for them in any crowd. They are optimistic, witty and blessed with a razor sharp mind. While Monkeys love to be the center of attention, they are good listeners as well. Their bottomless curiosity ensures they will be knowledgeable on a wide variety of topics. Their intelligence allows them to address complex tasks and situations with ease. Monkeys are show-offs who love nothing more than to bedazzle those around them with their antics.
Most Monkeys do not have a highly developed sense of morality. Indeed, if its fun, they’ll do it. Their primary goal is the pursuit of their own pleasure. Monkeys make pleasurable, exhilarating lovers, but beware of the possibility they will stray. Monkeys will try anything once, and if it is the slightest bit entertaining are sure to try it again.
The Monkey’s self-serving attitude may be trouble for many other Signs of the Zodiac. They are very hedonistic and lacking in self-control. If they cannot find a party they will start their own.
*(...Or just party on their own? :-P)
Age of Aquarius & Transhumanism
I was thinking about this Aquarius stuff and came to the conclusion that, while the ppl I know that are born in that sign are indeed very uniqe and interesting, they are not at all (I'm sorry, but frankly!) the easiest ppl for everyone to get along with. Happiness with them all too often is a castle built by sand. Or snow. This has a charm of it's own of course. But just so ppl know what to expect from this New Age of Aquarius... It's not most ppl's idea of bliss. The changes in way of life that is ahead is clearly pushing at least parts of humanity into some or other kind of transhuman state. I think this is relevant both to Toph and to Dollhouse tech...
Just to paint a picture of what could be expected, I'm using Science Fiction as an example. And my fav author, Tanith Lee's FOUR-BEE series is an interesting vision of an transhuman society. In FOUR-BEE one can change body all together, and design it after every whim. Antennas, silver hair, wings and hologram skin, any gender. Whatever. This can be done over every month, and ppl in FOUR-BEE regurlary kill themselves to get a change. Dreamy? ...It turns out that beeing able to realise every dream with the aid of technology is ultimatly utterly boring and unfulfilling, at least to some. So they escape into the desert to live like 'Adam' and 'Eve' did after beeing threwn out of Eden. (According to Bible myth: that's some non-pagan book, you won't find it in the Edda)
Just to paint a picture of what could be expected, I'm using Science Fiction as an example. And my fav author, Tanith Lee's FOUR-BEE series is an interesting vision of an transhuman society. In FOUR-BEE one can change body all together, and design it after every whim. Antennas, silver hair, wings and hologram skin, any gender. Whatever. This can be done over every month, and ppl in FOUR-BEE regurlary kill themselves to get a change. Dreamy? ...It turns out that beeing able to realise every dream with the aid of technology is ultimatly utterly boring and unfulfilling, at least to some. So they escape into the desert to live like 'Adam' and 'Eve' did after beeing threwn out of Eden. (According to Bible myth: that's some non-pagan book, you won't find it in the Edda)
Saturn 8'th of March 2009!
Keep an eye or a telescope on Saturn! Now at it's closest to Earth, in opposition to the Sun. Also, read my previous post on the Saturn Return effect, and the mysterious Hexagon of Saturn. Otherwise, read the novel Saturns Children, or try making gold by Alchemy. Saturn named Saturday! Yay! Some say Saturn is the real source of Father Christmas, no less. Figure that! ...Remember my warning about the Big Red? Old Crow-headed Saturn is also Odin, Father Time (Chronos), and Death. So how far off was Terry Pratchetts Hogfather and Tim Burtons Nightmare before Christmas, really? And what about Neil Gaiman? Aoo, giving myself an headache now... Not feeling up to playing against Death…
. Some say we are at the starting point of the Age of Aquarius. There seam to be an air of hippie over this coming spring, but is Aquarius ruled by Saturn or Uranus?! Btw, unsurprisingly, Brink is an aquarius. Don't ask me what that entails (The planet Saturn has a bad rep), Astrology, Tarot and Liber 777 isn't really my forte, I just know it's out there... (Well wait, I'll have someone else draw up a chart 4 Toph...)
...But are we now on the brink of something, 'where no man has gone before'? What if this new tech isn't confined to Dollhouses? And does all applications of this tech really have to be bad? What are your thoughts?
. Some say we are at the starting point of the Age of Aquarius. There seam to be an air of hippie over this coming spring, but is Aquarius ruled by Saturn or Uranus?! Btw, unsurprisingly, Brink is an aquarius. Don't ask me what that entails (The planet Saturn has a bad rep), Astrology, Tarot and Liber 777 isn't really my forte, I just know it's out there... (Well wait, I'll have someone else draw up a chart 4 Toph...)
...But are we now on the brink of something, 'where no man has gone before'? What if this new tech isn't confined to Dollhouses? And does all applications of this tech really have to be bad? What are your thoughts?
Friday, March 06, 2009
Freezing Iza Rune
...I have decided to give the Coven format a second try. This time around, I was thinking not to expand beyond three members the first year. The Coven will have a Sami/Finnish/Nordic orientation, Ecopagan at that, and everyone involved has to be able to travel into and stay safely for a while in the Norhtern Mountains (Fjällvärlden) no matter what season of the Year. High demands, yes i know, but I find I'm powerless in city contexts, unfortunally... We'll make up the rest together as we go along. ...Ask me if you want to know more. :-)
I'm worried. I'm making up plans to try to release the Rimthurs - the Ice 'Giants'/Trolls upon the world to counterweigh global warming. But I can't do it alone, and besides is it really such a stellar idea? I need to travel into the Holy Mountains, where the ancestors dwell, to ask for guidance. Just spiritually, this time. Isak will know how to proceed, I hope... Iza, not beeing my favourite rune, still is vital to me. This is the time for froZEN meditation. I'm going into Skadi's realm for a while now. Silence. Clarity. Light. And maybe some answers will be revealed to me there... The way forward. Also, how to proceed with helping in Hazels mission. And some spirits to aid Hazel where she is now.
I'm worried. I'm making up plans to try to release the Rimthurs - the Ice 'Giants'/Trolls upon the world to counterweigh global warming. But I can't do it alone, and besides is it really such a stellar idea? I need to travel into the Holy Mountains, where the ancestors dwell, to ask for guidance. Just spiritually, this time. Isak will know how to proceed, I hope... Iza, not beeing my favourite rune, still is vital to me. This is the time for froZEN meditation. I'm going into Skadi's realm for a while now. Silence. Clarity. Light. And maybe some answers will be revealed to me there... The way forward. Also, how to proceed with helping in Hazels mission. And some spirits to aid Hazel where she is now.
The Dollhouse on Tv
I just watched some spoiler vids for next episode of Dollhouse: Gray Hour, (thx Eve, for posting a link at Operation Foxtrot!) and in the second vid ECHO is wiped with a signal through her mobile phone. Ohh, how interesting! If the tv-production is on to something, the wipe can be done over phone connection... Imprints too, maybe? Then anyone could become a Doll at any time! There wouldn't be a way to know your friends from your foes in this.
In the end of Stage Fright it seems as though ECHO and SIERRA is conscious of themselves even in the wiped state inside the Dollhouse. That reminds me of the beginning of the first ep, when sombody remarked on how you always CAN tell what it said before on a wiped slate, as an answer to the Tabula Rasa remark.
I erlier have been sceptical on how much you really can tell about the real Dollhouses from the fictional series Dollhouse, but I'm beeing drawn in. It is tempting to compare facts. Just as long as we keep a critical mindset toward the info coming from it - it's a fiction after all, the Joss Whedon series. But with real good research done.
I have been searching out blogs on Dollhouse and tried to recruit new ppl to Operation Foxtrot. Eve started it with the Dollhouse forums. Soon there will be a lot of press on Dollhouse here in Sweden, when it airs at April the 19:th on Tv400.
And btw: in Grey Hour, ECHOS real name is Caroline? There was a Caroline at the Mnema chat at one time, I think...
In the end of Stage Fright it seems as though ECHO and SIERRA is conscious of themselves even in the wiped state inside the Dollhouse. That reminds me of the beginning of the first ep, when sombody remarked on how you always CAN tell what it said before on a wiped slate, as an answer to the Tabula Rasa remark.
I erlier have been sceptical on how much you really can tell about the real Dollhouses from the fictional series Dollhouse, but I'm beeing drawn in. It is tempting to compare facts. Just as long as we keep a critical mindset toward the info coming from it - it's a fiction after all, the Joss Whedon series. But with real good research done.
I have been searching out blogs on Dollhouse and tried to recruit new ppl to Operation Foxtrot. Eve started it with the Dollhouse forums. Soon there will be a lot of press on Dollhouse here in Sweden, when it airs at April the 19:th on Tv400.
And btw: in Grey Hour, ECHOS real name is Caroline? There was a Caroline at the Mnema chat at one time, I think...
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Maker of Dollhouses
I'm currently in Skullhell and staying at sister Sun's. I try to get some work done on the computor but keep getting sidetracked and watching Dollhouse and whatnot. Her man is beside me playing WoW, and Sid the dog is at my feet. He thinks I'm beeing mighty boring today.
I visited an old friend from artschool who's making Dollhouses like fanart to The Addams Family and Amity ville. Mac used to identify me with Wednesday Addams due to the fact that I since childhood has been redesigning fashiondolls, like 'Dark Barbie'.
Mac showed me an interesting documentary, Tompta Gudh, about an evil breed that infests Scandinavian forests, but have their origins in Tibet: the Tomte. They probably thrive wherever there is snow so look out... Especially for the Big Red one, he's like their emperor. He's got all the ppl fooled...
Still no word on the whereabouts of Hazel, if she is on Greenland or not. I'm hoping she is on her way or already in Scandinavia. Just putting it out there that if there is a Dollhouse in Scandinavia that needs to be taken apart, and it's not one of Macs lovely creations, I'm up 4 it.
I visited an old friend from artschool who's making Dollhouses like fanart to The Addams Family and Amity ville. Mac used to identify me with Wednesday Addams due to the fact that I since childhood has been redesigning fashiondolls, like 'Dark Barbie'.Mac showed me an interesting documentary, Tompta Gudh, about an evil breed that infests Scandinavian forests, but have their origins in Tibet: the Tomte. They probably thrive wherever there is snow so look out... Especially for the Big Red one, he's like their emperor. He's got all the ppl fooled...
Still no word on the whereabouts of Hazel, if she is on Greenland or not. I'm hoping she is on her way or already in Scandinavia. Just putting it out there that if there is a Dollhouse in Scandinavia that needs to be taken apart, and it's not one of Macs lovely creations, I'm up 4 it.
Monday, March 02, 2009
I SEARCHME searched me...
...And come up with an interesting article about hexagonal water.
I'm just super cool am I not? [I don't usually go out of my way to advertise stuff like searchme but this is 4 my cousins family. Luv ya Bill, Zoe & Jessi!]
...The real reason H2Ohexagon or Snowcrystal/Snowflake fits me as a nickname is humbling: but NO, you may NOT call me Agent Dandruff, thank you very much... Actually there is theories about dandruff making sense evolutionary.
Well, not much solice 4 me.
Googling H2O heX-files gave me these hits: The Hex Files, another one: The Hex Files And this: Hex Files, and a Oldshool gaming site, a 'Goth Bible', a paranormal forum section, a comicbook, an anime and more... No other H2O heX-files tho'.
More fun finds on the net: Hexagons are significant in the secret math of I Ching, too. Hexagrams encoded in the DNA? Runes encoded in DNA? [no not really...]My favorite runes are Teiwaz, Hagalaz & Thurizas, btw. I think my valkyria nature is overpowering my loving dito. 'Hit med lite äventyr, det är på tiden!' I feel a 'spring cry' coming on. But now is the time to study and work, regrettably, and not to play.
...Sid the dog thought otherwise and dragged me around Skullhell for two hours in the snowstorm. No match 4 the White Witch...
'Snowflakes are formed as super-cooled water condenses around particulate matter in the atmosphere. Super-cooled water is nearly 100% hexagonally structured.'
I'm just super cool am I not? [I don't usually go out of my way to advertise stuff like searchme but this is 4 my cousins family. Luv ya Bill, Zoe & Jessi!]
...The real reason H2Ohexagon or Snowcrystal/Snowflake fits me as a nickname is humbling: but NO, you may NOT call me Agent Dandruff, thank you very much... Actually there is theories about dandruff making sense evolutionary.
Well, not much solice 4 me.
Googling H2O heX-files gave me these hits: The Hex Files, another one: The Hex Files And this: Hex Files, and a Oldshool gaming site, a 'Goth Bible', a paranormal forum section, a comicbook, an anime and more... No other H2O heX-files tho'.More fun finds on the net: Hexagons are significant in the secret math of I Ching, too. Hexagrams encoded in the DNA? Runes encoded in DNA? [no not really...]My favorite runes are Teiwaz, Hagalaz & Thurizas, btw. I think my valkyria nature is overpowering my loving dito. 'Hit med lite äventyr, det är på tiden!' I feel a 'spring cry' coming on. But now is the time to study and work, regrettably, and not to play.
...Sid the dog thought otherwise and dragged me around Skullhell for two hours in the snowstorm. No match 4 the White Witch...
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Identity wants to be Free
Looks like we will have to kick some doll butt? (I don't know what help I will be, appearently my battle cry is more in the lines of:'Peace and harmony at all costs!' according to my astorlogical profile... It does say 'at all costs' tho'...That is a bit agressive :-))
But who are we and who are dolls? And the dolls are ppl too, just brainwashed, dangerous ones... And who doesn't love playing with dolls btw?
I remember the lyrics of Barbie Girl by danish 90'ties popgroup Aqua:
Now, Barbie is turning 50, but I'm more into Jem dolls, myself. Synergy (an A.I.), Shana (Outrageous! Fashion Designer) and Aya (grew up in foster care) are my favs... The Misfits are cool too, but was there ever a Techrat doll made? I want one. His bio, from the Jemgirl's site:
So, he's a little creepy (not as creepy Thin Man tho') but stylish, and reminds me of someone...
But who are we and who are dolls? And the dolls are ppl too, just brainwashed, dangerous ones... And who doesn't love playing with dolls btw?
I remember the lyrics of Barbie Girl by danish 90'ties popgroup Aqua:
Make me walk, make me talk, do whatever you please
I can act like a star, I can beg on my knees//
I'm a barbie girl, in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it's fantastic!
you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation
Now, Barbie is turning 50, but I'm more into Jem dolls, myself. Synergy (an A.I.), Shana (Outrageous! Fashion Designer) and Aya (grew up in foster care) are my favs... The Misfits are cool too, but was there ever a Techrat doll made? I want one. His bio, from the Jemgirl's site:
Techrat is an electronics genius. He has his own lab called the ‘Rathole’ where he has masses of computers, gadgets and the place he performs his electronic inventions. He is hired by Eric Raymond to create gadgets for the Misfits which usually are for the purpose of messing up Jem and The Holograms concerts. Some of his inventions include, remote controls, frequency jammers, laser light gadgets, flying objects and even a time machine. So often, his gadgets end up being destroyed by Pizzazz due to the fact she wants to have a play. Techrat is rather introverted and is happy to spend hours at a time working on his inventions. Still, he finds interaction with people an enjoyment only when he has completed a project and can show it off to his audience. He gets along better with his computers than he does with people. He doesn’t like to be too close to people and hates being touched. Techrat is kept as Eric’s secret weapon against Jem and the Holograms and they have never seen him and do not know he exists. Techrat enjoys the games played against Jem and the Holograms and loves to see his gadgets take on their full impact this way.
So, he's a little creepy (not as creepy Thin Man tho') but stylish, and reminds me of someone...
Saturday, February 28, 2009
One journey comes 2 it's end...
Another one begins. I think Hazel will be all right now.
I'm packing for my trip to Ubmi and Skullhell this weekend + a day or two? I'll see... I have put'Andromeda strain' aside and I'm bringing 'Speaker 4 the dead' to read instead.
I'll post a photo and a blog on the feast when I come back sometime next week.
I'm packing for my trip to Ubmi and Skullhell this weekend + a day or two? I'll see... I have put'Andromeda strain' aside and I'm bringing 'Speaker 4 the dead' to read instead.
I'll post a photo and a blog on the feast when I come back sometime next week.
Goth Grrl
A Goth Grrl have posted a vid since 'Dark Hazel' appeared. Viviane has really unpractical shoes me thinks. We don't exactly know who she is but she looks a little crazy to me. She's right about the Valkyrie tho'. Maybe she will gain Hazel's trust. I wouldn't like to meet her in a dark alley though... [A shame I missed Opeth though.]
DaX vid, and Hazels last transmission are amazing though, a perfect finish to this phaze.
DaX vid, and Hazels last transmission are amazing though, a perfect finish to this phaze.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Doll took our C777?
Word on the MNEMA chat, is that Chindambar has walked into a trap and there may be an actual Dollhouse after all! The R primelab forum tread that sparked speculation is the message from C777's nephew. The autentencity of this nephew was tested by Daniel by him asking P to change the post, and his request seemes to have been met.
Even so, this find has been overshadowed by Hazels latest vid where she imprints original Hazel. The community of helpers are unsetteled by her appearence, and are now in suspence for the next transmission that we expect tonight. Becca has valuable insight as to how Hazel should be threated. I give my perspective, having been much like Hazel at one point... I think... We'll just have to wait and see...
Also the murderscene is investigated in detail.
...Hazel original came on and made her self up with goth style hairdo. She doesn't need anyone to tell her anything. I think it will be ok now. Don't know what she should do at Greenland tho'...
Even so, this find has been overshadowed by Hazels latest vid where she imprints original Hazel. The community of helpers are unsetteled by her appearence, and are now in suspence for the next transmission that we expect tonight. Becca has valuable insight as to how Hazel should be threated. I give my perspective, having been much like Hazel at one point... I think... We'll just have to wait and see...
Also the murderscene is investigated in detail.
...Hazel original came on and made her self up with goth style hairdo. She doesn't need anyone to tell her anything. I think it will be ok now. Don't know what she should do at Greenland tho'...
Carrying lingonberries
'The Swedes are coming! And they're carrying lingonberries!' Grampa Simpson, The Simpsons
Who has missed Pippi Longstocking, the Pirate Bay?
Look out for Tomas Isdal next, and his One Swarm.
Swedes sure aren't orderly like their rep. ;-)
Who has missed Pippi Longstocking, the Pirate Bay?
Look out for Tomas Isdal next, and his One Swarm.
Swedes sure aren't orderly like their rep. ;-)
Actual realtime Toph
In the MNEMA R prime-labs a message from Chidambars nephew sheds new light on the whereabouts and involvement of Topher today? Tophs tattoo is the lead...
"Account was traced to United States of America and Los Angeles area. All indicates very good security but private person, not company. BUT: One number was reoccured in user-details and that is 1701 but more than this I do not know."
I feel really embarrased about my vids to Toph-wedge-99 now when I know actual Toph might have seen them. Can I just sink thruogh the ground now, and disappear, please?
...But this opens the door for me to speculate and really use my paranoid mindset. The (fake) Crogun that posed as R.P (that is Robert Peterson) that got TSIS online again is totally suspicious. I actually emailed with him early on, trying to trick more info from him because I thought he really was an TSIS researcher, and after revenge-messing with me he admitted that he was one of the community of helpers just not in those exact words. Who was this rly? Make yourself known or I'll just jump to the conclusion that fake Crogun is actual Toph. It would be neat cuz then we have email adress to Toph. Not that we would need that... If he's following and tweaking the action at R-primelab.
"Account was traced to United States of America and Los Angeles area. All indicates very good security but private person, not company. BUT: One number was reoccured in user-details and that is 1701 but more than this I do not know."
I feel really embarrased about my vids to Toph-wedge-99 now when I know actual Toph might have seen them. Can I just sink thruogh the ground now, and disappear, please?
...But this opens the door for me to speculate and really use my paranoid mindset. The (fake) Crogun that posed as R.P (that is Robert Peterson) that got TSIS online again is totally suspicious. I actually emailed with him early on, trying to trick more info from him because I thought he really was an TSIS researcher, and after revenge-messing with me he admitted that he was one of the community of helpers just not in those exact words. Who was this rly? Make yourself known or I'll just jump to the conclusion that fake Crogun is actual Toph. It would be neat cuz then we have email adress to Toph. Not that we would need that... If he's following and tweaking the action at R-primelab.
Frankenmom wedge suicide
I... I don't know really what to say. My definition of life is maybe broader than most ppls. I feel sorry for Dr.Rose. Even if I do think it was very wrong what she did, I don't believe in death punishment and I do agree with Becca that Andrea's motivation was similar to any mother's. This in combination with an unhealthy drive to be at the frontiers of science (where no man's gone before!) made for a really horrible parent, though...
One thing that has been bothering me this whole time is; where was her biofather in all this? And now? What did he think about his daughter beeing handeled in that way by her mother? I just hate it when in our society the father is so easily factored out.
This made me post a vid - possible just a minute too late to load up to lab, and besides it didn't have a chanse to be recommended in time. But anyhow, I needed to get things off my chest. Maybe Hazel will get to see it when (or if?) she gets out of that hellhole alive. I hope it makes her feel less alone and strange if she does by some miracle get to see it in there.
Right in this moment the MNEMA chat i sizzling with speculations on the murderscene.
I'm not smart like ppl there but I like to speculate and suggest new angles. I was thinking the suit is Hazels biofather, maybe also a doc. He and Bertucci would have fought about who was going to get 'his' daughter. Bertucci wants Hazel to be Celia and Hazels biofather wants his original Hazel back. Maybe he and Andrea has seperated, she got Hazel by court decision but now he's found out what Andrea has been doing with his daughter and wants to put a stop to it... Maybe Andrea hated Hazels father so much she wanted to erase his part in Hazel's personality all together...
Maybe her father (also called Dr.Rose, obviesly) took her out of there and got her into a foster home, so Mnema and R-corp wouldn't find her?
And NOW, if he would be alive, but wasn't the one who put Hazel in fostercare, what would he be up to now? Kidnaping her in a way onto a ship and wanting her to discover the truth, transporting her to another country where he can hide her away from R -corp?
One thing that has been bothering me this whole time is; where was her biofather in all this? And now? What did he think about his daughter beeing handeled in that way by her mother? I just hate it when in our society the father is so easily factored out.
This made me post a vid - possible just a minute too late to load up to lab, and besides it didn't have a chanse to be recommended in time. But anyhow, I needed to get things off my chest. Maybe Hazel will get to see it when (or if?) she gets out of that hellhole alive. I hope it makes her feel less alone and strange if she does by some miracle get to see it in there.
Right in this moment the MNEMA chat i sizzling with speculations on the murderscene.
I'm not smart like ppl there but I like to speculate and suggest new angles. I was thinking the suit is Hazels biofather, maybe also a doc. He and Bertucci would have fought about who was going to get 'his' daughter. Bertucci wants Hazel to be Celia and Hazels biofather wants his original Hazel back. Maybe he and Andrea has seperated, she got Hazel by court decision but now he's found out what Andrea has been doing with his daughter and wants to put a stop to it... Maybe Andrea hated Hazels father so much she wanted to erase his part in Hazel's personality all together...
Maybe her father (also called Dr.Rose, obviesly) took her out of there and got her into a foster home, so Mnema and R-corp wouldn't find her?
And NOW, if he would be alive, but wasn't the one who put Hazel in fostercare, what would he be up to now? Kidnaping her in a way onto a ship and wanting her to discover the truth, transporting her to another country where he can hide her away from R -corp?
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wierd Singing
I was just having coffe before going to Uni, in such a hurry that I was dressed to go outside already but dropped in to the MNEMA chat to say Hej. Instantly I was asked to make a musicvid, from out of the blue. Appearently Daniel had tried to get someone to rec it for hours, but when I came Devlin asked me to do it - but I didn't get that it was supposed to be a surprise for Daniel... Sorry! It was an humorus and elegant way to tell Dr. Rose that what she did was indeed very wierd, and I was happy to do it for the good cause.
I didn't have time to reherse it much, just tried to learn the melody (no time to learn the text tho', wrote it down) and saved the second take. Wish I could do it over; 'Once more, with feeling'...
The original Wierd Science musicvid Daniel sent a link to was hard to sing to so I went 'a capella'. I think the words came out much better when I sing, than when I try talking English. I will have to sing to you ppl instead of talking in the future. It will be like Sweeny Todd without the meatpies - meat is like poison to me.
I missed the bus and had to run all the way to university (2 miles) but miraculously got but a little late to class. Phew.
I didn't have time to reherse it much, just tried to learn the melody (no time to learn the text tho', wrote it down) and saved the second take. Wish I could do it over; 'Once more, with feeling'...
The original Wierd Science musicvid Daniel sent a link to was hard to sing to so I went 'a capella'. I think the words came out much better when I sing, than when I try talking English. I will have to sing to you ppl instead of talking in the future. It will be like Sweeny Todd without the meatpies - meat is like poison to me.
I missed the bus and had to run all the way to university (2 miles) but miraculously got but a little late to class. Phew.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Hazel's astological mystery!
Just when is the right time to put little candles on a big cake for Hazel anyway? Willow or Hawthorn Moon - Oak or Holly Moon? I'm finding it very difficult to find out just what Tree Moon she is born under. Me I'm an Blackberry... Tho' It's usually already Ivy Moon at that date.
Reminds me... Tomorrow, Thurs Day, Ash Moon begins and I have to sew a dryad costume for the mask at the Druid Lodge in Ubmi at Saturn Day. I was thinking, Poison Ivy was based on Bettie Page, so if I sew a little dress in that style from the ivy patterned fabric I have it will be stellar. But I only have a couple of days left to do it tho'... I can't really not go it's my (old) coven sister's 40'th birthday and since I've promised to help nothing but my hospitalization would dull her wreath if I did't show... But I look forward to it tho'. And who knows, I could get valuable help from a Druid Lodge full of Carnivaling Druids and Dryads if Hazel would need help like that at Saturns day... Place should be soaring with Awen...
Why should they care? Maybe because of her name.
Hazel is the tree of poets, diviners, witches. Hazel wands are used
for water witching and arbitration. These are best gathered during
Hazel Moon. Hazel resonantes with Sophia, Christ’s feminine
counterpart & goddess of wisdom.
"In ancient times, the Druids carried hazel nuts in their pockets, to symbolize the hazels of inspiration which are associated with the salmon of wisdom, the salmon being the creature who knows how to get back to the source. So for Druids to carry hazel nuts in our pockets, it’s a reminder that we are dedicating our lives to getting to the source of truth and knowledge, to understand the ultimate cause of all that is, to seek the depth going back to the origins of who we are, the origins of the universe, and the world of the Gods." /Ellen Evert Hopman
The nut of the Hazel was consumed by the Druids for wisdom, and it was believed to be the source of all knowledge of the Arts and Sciences. A forked Hazel stick was used for divining the identity of murderers and thieves. It was used to find water, and buried treasure as well, a practice still used by water witches today. Druidic heralds carried White Hazel wands as a symbol of their station.
/From Roisin Dubh (the dark rose) 1500-tal
...Just a photo from the Druidfeast. Yes, it did soar with Awen...
Reminds me... Tomorrow, Thurs Day, Ash Moon begins and I have to sew a dryad costume for the mask at the Druid Lodge in Ubmi at Saturn Day. I was thinking, Poison Ivy was based on Bettie Page, so if I sew a little dress in that style from the ivy patterned fabric I have it will be stellar. But I only have a couple of days left to do it tho'... I can't really not go it's my (old) coven sister's 40'th birthday and since I've promised to help nothing but my hospitalization would dull her wreath if I did't show... But I look forward to it tho'. And who knows, I could get valuable help from a Druid Lodge full of Carnivaling Druids and Dryads if Hazel would need help like that at Saturns day... Place should be soaring with Awen...
Why should they care? Maybe because of her name.
Hazel is the tree of poets, diviners, witches. Hazel wands are used
for water witching and arbitration. These are best gathered during
Hazel Moon. Hazel resonantes with Sophia, Christ’s feminine
counterpart & goddess of wisdom.
"In ancient times, the Druids carried hazel nuts in their pockets, to symbolize the hazels of inspiration which are associated with the salmon of wisdom, the salmon being the creature who knows how to get back to the source. So for Druids to carry hazel nuts in our pockets, it’s a reminder that we are dedicating our lives to getting to the source of truth and knowledge, to understand the ultimate cause of all that is, to seek the depth going back to the origins of who we are, the origins of the universe, and the world of the Gods." /Ellen Evert Hopman
The nut of the Hazel was consumed by the Druids for wisdom, and it was believed to be the source of all knowledge of the Arts and Sciences. A forked Hazel stick was used for divining the identity of murderers and thieves. It was used to find water, and buried treasure as well, a practice still used by water witches today. Druidic heralds carried White Hazel wands as a symbol of their station.
I could scale the blue air,
I could plow the high hills;
Oh! I could kneel all night in prayer
To heal your many ills!
And one beamy smile from you
Would float like light between
My toils and me, my own, my true.
My Dark Rosaleen!
My Own Rosaleen!
Would give me life and soul anew,
A second life, a soul anew,
My Dark Rosaleen!
/From Roisin Dubh (the dark rose) 1500-tal
...Just a photo from the Druidfeast. Yes, it did soar with Awen...
Nano Nano!
Tele tubbies in all honour, but I really enjoyed a show called Mork and Mindy as a young child. Take a guess at which one of them influenced me the most? Mork or Mindy?
...Not related to the poular 70'thies tvshow, is Nanotech. Now introduced as a gigantic experiment on the unsuspecting world. My view of the subject is one of caution, what if? Blood Music by Greg Bear turns out to be profetic?
I kinda react with a Swedish expression: NäNU---!! >:-o
This means: No, now---!(...I'm as MAD as Hel and I'm NOT gonna take it anymore!)
...Not related to the poular 70'thies tvshow, is Nanotech. Now introduced as a gigantic experiment on the unsuspecting world. My view of the subject is one of caution, what if? Blood Music by Greg Bear turns out to be profetic?
I kinda react with a Swedish expression: NäNU---!! >:-o
This means: No, now---!(...I'm as MAD as Hel and I'm NOT gonna take it anymore!)
Pinoccio & Galatean
Two people on the R prime lab site has nicknames and avatars on a similar theme. Pinoccio and Galatean. This inspired me to make a post about those references.
Galatea was the famous sculptor Pygmalion's masterpiece sculpture that came to life, after he prays to Aphrodite (My mistress Freia) to make it so. The greek myth made famous in Ovids Metamorhopses became the inspiration for many later stories in the history of literature, and still is. What first comes to mind today is of course Pinoccio... But my personal favourite on the theme is Der Sandmann by E.T.A. Hoffman
Galatea was the famous sculptor Pygmalion's masterpiece sculpture that came to life, after he prays to Aphrodite (My mistress Freia) to make it so. The greek myth made famous in Ovids Metamorhopses became the inspiration for many later stories in the history of literature, and still is. What first comes to mind today is of course Pinoccio... But my personal favourite on the theme is Der Sandmann by E.T.A. Hoffman
Chidambar777 is back...?
Yesterday Carnival began. But Carnival time will come to an end and masks will fall... Next week? What to expect then?
It's like I have stared into a kalejdroskope, -smck!- I'm hit with a fish of surprise when the kalejdroscope twists a half turn. I'm chocked and can't believe my own assumptions... I feel sick to my stomach. I feel stupid both for doubting them but also for trusting them, I don't know what to believe any more... Yes you infiltraters from Cherberos know what I'm talking about... 'Nothing is ever forgotten' as Herne the Hunter used to say to Robin of Sherwood.
But Mr Chidambar '777' (Liber 777?)I have suspected all along...? Maybe 4 TAZing? (it's a good thing)
Or for really beeing Thot (...and that can depend, he is tricky but usually likes The Others i believe)
Tonight the previous support guy Chidambar came into the chat, and privatly said he was waiting for 'Mr Grandmaster Daniel Anand'. I thought that was a bit wierd, googled 'Anand' and came up with a chesspro'. Thinking about his nick with 777 again, I sent him some questions about things that might be connected to 93 or 2109 and tried to get an conversation going that would confirm it really was him, too. I think It really was... But there's no way of beeing sure. The answers I got was noncomitting but maybe also a little reveling if I can figure out what in the world he meant??? Daniel was a little upset that Rambo left before he came back to the chat. I didn't refer what I had talked about with C777 thought and I guess that could make ME the suspicious one? Ppl don't even believe that he was there but ust check the Mnema Chatlog, you'll see his nickname there...
//Mr Chidambar has joined 7:39pm
h2ohexagon.blogspot.com - Mr Chidambar? Really? ^ ^
Mr Chidambar is now known as Mr Chidambar777
7:56pm h2ohexagon.blogspot.com - Rambo! You're into angels and stuff? Wo are the 2109? http://www.schuelers.com/enochian/ Omg Enochian magic *headache* Ahaa. Anand, what coincidence, a famous chessplayer is named that too//
I dare not write anything about this in the forum, chanse is that even if he works/have worked for R corp he can be a part of the group 2109 or some other group infiltrating R corp. Maybe the same as Toph was. I don't really know what to think about 2109... And how many more are they?
When mentioning the 2109; Hack'2112'...?
If they are ok then writing my suspicions here in my little insignificant blog won't reach the ear of the mighty R corp and make trouble for Chidambar and 2109 it they really are benign.
I feel I should refresh my memory on enochiana as someone in the chat adviced me but It's not my thing really, I hope someone out there could tell me; Should we expect bad or good things from them? (And is chess really as malicious as Soundless Dawn and the other synchromysticicst claim?)...Have to read up on 93, Liber 777 and the 2109. I have forgotten much too much, I keep mixing them up but so did we back then I remember. Was the 2109 not kinda 'The Lawnmower Man' ppl?...
'When in doubt, blog', as our little genious DaX quoted... I have to rest again 4 a while. This is kinda draining to be researching all by myself. At the same time it's my own fault for saying; you others don't have to care about this metaphysical stuff if it bothers you so much, i'll keep an eye out to see if it's something to it... I digged my own grave there...? But now I'm all like: ...help, someone? Anyone? Mike James even? lol
I don't know how ppl will react when I come out with this. I'm 'the grrl that cried Wolf' too many times before and is labeled paranoid and conspirationtheory-happy. Yes I may fall on my face but it's alright... I'm just beeing HeX.
It's like I have stared into a kalejdroskope, -smck!- I'm hit with a fish of surprise when the kalejdroscope twists a half turn. I'm chocked and can't believe my own assumptions... I feel sick to my stomach. I feel stupid both for doubting them but also for trusting them, I don't know what to believe any more... Yes you infiltraters from Cherberos know what I'm talking about... 'Nothing is ever forgotten' as Herne the Hunter used to say to Robin of Sherwood.
But Mr Chidambar '777' (Liber 777?)I have suspected all along...? Maybe 4 TAZing? (it's a good thing)
Or for really beeing Thot (...and that can depend, he is tricky but usually likes The Others i believe)
Tonight the previous support guy Chidambar came into the chat, and privatly said he was waiting for 'Mr Grandmaster Daniel Anand'. I thought that was a bit wierd, googled 'Anand' and came up with a chesspro'. Thinking about his nick with 777 again, I sent him some questions about things that might be connected to 93 or 2109 and tried to get an conversation going that would confirm it really was him, too. I think It really was... But there's no way of beeing sure. The answers I got was noncomitting but maybe also a little reveling if I can figure out what in the world he meant??? Daniel was a little upset that Rambo left before he came back to the chat. I didn't refer what I had talked about with C777 thought and I guess that could make ME the suspicious one? Ppl don't even believe that he was there but ust check the Mnema Chatlog, you'll see his nickname there...
//Mr Chidambar has joined 7:39pm
h2ohexagon.blogspot.com - Mr Chidambar? Really? ^ ^
Mr Chidambar is now known as Mr Chidambar777
7:56pm h2ohexagon.blogspot.com - Rambo! You're into angels and stuff? Wo are the 2109? http://www.schuelers.com/enochian/ Omg Enochian magic *headache* Ahaa. Anand, what coincidence, a famous chessplayer is named that too//
I dare not write anything about this in the forum, chanse is that even if he works/have worked for R corp he can be a part of the group 2109 or some other group infiltrating R corp. Maybe the same as Toph was. I don't really know what to think about 2109... And how many more are they?
When mentioning the 2109; Hack'2112'...?
If they are ok then writing my suspicions here in my little insignificant blog won't reach the ear of the mighty R corp and make trouble for Chidambar and 2109 it they really are benign.
I feel I should refresh my memory on enochiana as someone in the chat adviced me but It's not my thing really, I hope someone out there could tell me; Should we expect bad or good things from them? (And is chess really as malicious as Soundless Dawn and the other synchromysticicst claim?)...Have to read up on 93, Liber 777 and the 2109. I have forgotten much too much, I keep mixing them up but so did we back then I remember. Was the 2109 not kinda 'The Lawnmower Man' ppl?...
'When in doubt, blog', as our little genious DaX quoted... I have to rest again 4 a while. This is kinda draining to be researching all by myself. At the same time it's my own fault for saying; you others don't have to care about this metaphysical stuff if it bothers you so much, i'll keep an eye out to see if it's something to it... I digged my own grave there...? But now I'm all like: ...help, someone? Anyone? Mike James even? lol
I don't know how ppl will react when I come out with this. I'm 'the grrl that cried Wolf' too many times before and is labeled paranoid and conspirationtheory-happy. Yes I may fall on my face but it's alright... I'm just beeing HeX.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Tarot for A.I. Butterfly grrl
As requested by Mike James at R prime-lab:
THE CELTIC CROSS
1&2)Knight of Wands and *THE WORLD*:
The Key cards are here confirming the subject beeing Hazel, confirms the situation she is in (traveling), and asserts her importance for the world at large. Her true nature is the Hanged man in reverse - not a victim but a 'victor'. She is Persefone, that has stepped into the underworld but will emerge again and bring spring to the whole world.
3)*EMPEROR*: She is unaware of her own shadow, a subconscious, tyrannical side: aggressive, brave, bold and in command. She has to discover it and control it lest it will overthrow her, when controlled it will strenghten her. Alternativly this is something underlying the situation that she isn't aware of, and it could be a man like Bertucci... Tricky.
4)Queen of Pentagrams: I interpret as Dr. Rose, she is/was a working buisness woman, practical and down to earth. Dedicated, she is as ambitious in her plans for her children. Her children or partner feel that they can't be themselves and still be loved. She has crossed the line. The card is reversed so something is wrong.
5)*THE MAGICIAN*: This is how Hazel ideally should act in her situation. Combining of elements to create something more. Alternativly, this is Thot/Toph that guide or help her? Something that is making it better.
6)4 Wands: Hazels challenge is to build a foundation she can survive on for the future. A 'house'. I'm guessing it refers to the survivalskills.
7)Princess of Wands: To herself Hazel is a message. She is the hub in the wheel, the center of attention, hers and our, obviusly.
8)The Ace of Swords: To us and the world Hazel is pure information, raw intellectual potential. She is Excalibur, that (the Gray?) want to obtain to gain power.
9)Knight of Cups: Percival seeking the graal, as an act of love and dedication, is who/what is going to save her. That's us, you guys...
10)9 Wands: Hazel will find what she seeks. She's only to shine the Hermit's light upward to see it. She might feel tired, wary and on guard; but remind her that she has reserves of energy and strength for that final push. Completion of all she's worked for is right there, all she need do is go for it!
THE CELTIC CROSS
1&2)Knight of Wands and *THE WORLD*:
The Key cards are here confirming the subject beeing Hazel, confirms the situation she is in (traveling), and asserts her importance for the world at large. Her true nature is the Hanged man in reverse - not a victim but a 'victor'. She is Persefone, that has stepped into the underworld but will emerge again and bring spring to the whole world.
3)*EMPEROR*: She is unaware of her own shadow, a subconscious, tyrannical side: aggressive, brave, bold and in command. She has to discover it and control it lest it will overthrow her, when controlled it will strenghten her. Alternativly this is something underlying the situation that she isn't aware of, and it could be a man like Bertucci... Tricky.
4)Queen of Pentagrams: I interpret as Dr. Rose, she is/was a working buisness woman, practical and down to earth. Dedicated, she is as ambitious in her plans for her children. Her children or partner feel that they can't be themselves and still be loved. She has crossed the line. The card is reversed so something is wrong.
5)*THE MAGICIAN*: This is how Hazel ideally should act in her situation. Combining of elements to create something more. Alternativly, this is Thot/Toph that guide or help her? Something that is making it better.
6)4 Wands: Hazels challenge is to build a foundation she can survive on for the future. A 'house'. I'm guessing it refers to the survivalskills.
7)Princess of Wands: To herself Hazel is a message. She is the hub in the wheel, the center of attention, hers and our, obviusly.
8)The Ace of Swords: To us and the world Hazel is pure information, raw intellectual potential. She is Excalibur, that (the Gray?) want to obtain to gain power.
9)Knight of Cups: Percival seeking the graal, as an act of love and dedication, is who/what is going to save her. That's us, you guys...
10)9 Wands: Hazel will find what she seeks. She's only to shine the Hermit's light upward to see it. She might feel tired, wary and on guard; but remind her that she has reserves of energy and strength for that final push. Completion of all she's worked for is right there, all she need do is go for it!
Binaural Beats
A vid about sound and soul. Watch it if you dare. Or go on to: Synchromusicology, Chromotherapy, Synesthesia, and the Aural Current of Electric Audiomancy...
Do you posess 'An Third Ear'?
Listen to my music library, btw
Do you posess 'An Third Ear'?
Listen to my music library, btw
the Hexagon of Saturn and Saturn Return
Synchromysticism of Saturn
Saturn is connected to genetic manipulation and creating a perfect, godlike human. Soundless Dawn is warning us in his youtube vid 'The Violet, Vishnu, Venus, Vixen, Vortex' that terrorist might be trying to take over our collective imagination... Thot and the mystical Rose and my mistress Freia makes apperances too, in different guises. 'Love is the fifth element, after all... '
And on a more scientifical note: The Hexagon of Saturn investigated!
Actual Toph is, if he's alive, soon 29 y.o. the year of the time of the Saturn Return effect: Saturn, planet of destiny, is at the same position as when he was born. His life is going to change, and he is passing into the second phase of his life. Yes this will happen again 29,5 years later, when he comes into next phase.
Incidently, at 8'th of March, Saturn is at it's closest point to Earth that it ever gets in its travel around our yellow star.
Saturn is connected to genetic manipulation and creating a perfect, godlike human. Soundless Dawn is warning us in his youtube vid 'The Violet, Vishnu, Venus, Vixen, Vortex' that terrorist might be trying to take over our collective imagination... Thot and the mystical Rose and my mistress Freia makes apperances too, in different guises. 'Love is the fifth element, after all... '
And on a more scientifical note: The Hexagon of Saturn investigated!
Actual Toph is, if he's alive, soon 29 y.o. the year of the time of the Saturn Return effect: Saturn, planet of destiny, is at the same position as when he was born. His life is going to change, and he is passing into the second phase of his life. Yes this will happen again 29,5 years later, when he comes into next phase.
Incidently, at 8'th of March, Saturn is at it's closest point to Earth that it ever gets in its travel around our yellow star.
Codecrackin'
Now the Mnema chat and R prime-lab forum is sissling with decoding action!
Only the truth will truly set Hazel free, but the door doesn't open by it self.
There is also an discussion about what really happened in the lab that day when Dr. Rose disappeared. The logs that Toph helped retrieve from the overwitten floppys are investigated, the forensic data availiable. Maybe also Top's vid helped people turn their attention to that again... Even tho' ppl not so in love with Toph keep pointing out how unhelpful he was and how much he messed up. I mean, can you imagine how you would react if it was YOU-wedge-99 that was in his situation, and was aware that you were a 'just a wedge'?
What would you, honestly, do?
What would Foxtrot do?
Only the truth will truly set Hazel free, but the door doesn't open by it self.
There is also an discussion about what really happened in the lab that day when Dr. Rose disappeared. The logs that Toph helped retrieve from the overwitten floppys are investigated, the forensic data availiable. Maybe also Top's vid helped people turn their attention to that again... Even tho' ppl not so in love with Toph keep pointing out how unhelpful he was and how much he messed up. I mean, can you imagine how you would react if it was YOU-wedge-99 that was in his situation, and was aware that you were a 'just a wedge'?
What would you, honestly, do?
What would Foxtrot do?
A.I. Butterfly - Psyche.
As I wrote before I have speculated in there beeing two ways of saving or A.I. girl Hazel, and one is downloading her. Maybe setting her free on the internet The Landmowerman stylee? (Or there's my donated body.)The obvies way to save her is of course to save her out of that lab before she dies in there. But this isn't a fairytale and besides not all fairytales have happy endings. (The original 'The Little Mermaid' by H.C. Andersen didn't, for one... Love it tho')
Reality bites. And Lupus sucks. Lupus btw is symbolized by a purple butterfly...
I find one thing disturbing, her necklace... Where did she got it and what does it signify? Butterflies were the most reoccuring motif scribbled on the walls of Aushwitz. It symbolises a spiritual journey - from caterpillar, to cocoon (the lab) and then butterfly. Sounds beautiful, does it? Yes, but butterflys have wings. Like angels. And in ancient greek myth the butterfly symbolized the soul, and the godess of soul, Psyche. I hope from my heart that this isn't a sign of things to come... Prayers and gifts offered to Bieggolomai for milder weather and Ran for protection on the sea, might not do it this time.
Daniel came up with an alternate inerpretation:
"Once Zhuangzi dreamt he was a butterfly, a butterfly flitting and fluttering around, happy with himself and doing as he pleased. He didn't know he was Zhuangzi. Suddenly he woke up and there he was, solid and unmistakable Zhuangzi. But he didn't know if he was Zhuangzi who had dreamt he was a butterfly, or a butterfly dreaming he was Zhuangzi. Between Zhuangzi and a butterfly there must be some distinction! This is called the Transformation of Things."
I wish someone would post a vid singing Ben Harpers 'Butterfly' song to Hazel, as a comfort to her alone in the cold. It would be perfect but I'm unsure about the lyrics. Someone with her moms voice... Would be good.
I feel so distressed by this that I have to do a tarot laying out for Hazel, as Mike (our resident jester at R primelabs) suggested. Don't be upset with me for what the cards might be, remember I have no control over that...
The vid is up and please don't vote it up to the lab it would make no sense to Hazel. Now I will do the 'reading'/interpretation and post it in the forum...
Reality bites. And Lupus sucks. Lupus btw is symbolized by a purple butterfly...
I find one thing disturbing, her necklace... Where did she got it and what does it signify? Butterflies were the most reoccuring motif scribbled on the walls of Aushwitz. It symbolises a spiritual journey - from caterpillar, to cocoon (the lab) and then butterfly. Sounds beautiful, does it? Yes, but butterflys have wings. Like angels. And in ancient greek myth the butterfly symbolized the soul, and the godess of soul, Psyche. I hope from my heart that this isn't a sign of things to come... Prayers and gifts offered to Bieggolomai for milder weather and Ran for protection on the sea, might not do it this time.
Daniel came up with an alternate inerpretation:
"Once Zhuangzi dreamt he was a butterfly, a butterfly flitting and fluttering around, happy with himself and doing as he pleased. He didn't know he was Zhuangzi. Suddenly he woke up and there he was, solid and unmistakable Zhuangzi. But he didn't know if he was Zhuangzi who had dreamt he was a butterfly, or a butterfly dreaming he was Zhuangzi. Between Zhuangzi and a butterfly there must be some distinction! This is called the Transformation of Things."
I wish someone would post a vid singing Ben Harpers 'Butterfly' song to Hazel, as a comfort to her alone in the cold. It would be perfect but I'm unsure about the lyrics. Someone with her moms voice... Would be good.
I feel so distressed by this that I have to do a tarot laying out for Hazel, as Mike (our resident jester at R primelabs) suggested. Don't be upset with me for what the cards might be, remember I have no control over that...
The vid is up and please don't vote it up to the lab it would make no sense to Hazel. Now I will do the 'reading'/interpretation and post it in the forum...
Monday, February 23, 2009
Last Toph vids <3
He starts the vid with the vulcan greeting, "hello there, Hexagon and hacks, I'm Topher Nmonic, (Vulcan tongue???)...I put them under 'files'" And then he said: "I'm just a wedge, but in case I'm not dead in the real world - please look me up. I'm available for dating and/or (fish?)" (!!!) Can't make it out... Could be a reference to me threatening to smack Spock around with a herring. Proves my speculation that Toph have to be somewhat of a mashocist if he has a crush on Dr. Rose... ;-) I wouldn't mind so much, now when I've found out he's a Philip K Dick-fan, as well as an W.Gibson fan, too... <3 (...Later realised he slured on the word 'friendship' - and was not sayin fish at all, but decided to keep this post as it is...)
I was relieved that Toph-wedge-99 wasn't angry at me for trying to trick and threaten him (but it was done in a kinda sweet and playful way tho'). Just proves that boobies gets you where you want in life, that plus the Vulcan greeting of course... Said I should look the real Toph up. Yeah right if I can get him drunk first... :-D He didn't fall for the 2029 ruse tho'... (But he kinda responded to it in the second vid, so he clearly apprechated it! Good going DaX!)
He also was very forthcoming with what he could help us with. Acted detective, sent the hacked files.
In the second vid he sits on the floor, in a bad state, writing a note. He finishes the Bladerunner quote I sent him in one of my vids: Time to Die... (Famous last words) Then he nods off and we have Hazel back. Hazel wakes up with the note in her hand, reads it aloud: Hi Hazel, You're all grown up, It's a real McFly moment...(reference to Back to the Future) etc... Why not go to Mnema R prime lab and check the vids out?
Jack Frost is painting the walls of the lab now...
Before imprinting Toph, Hazel (AI girl) told us it was freezing in the lab. We need to post a vid with more survivalinfo to her.
Speculations of the route is going on i the Mnema chat and in the forum.
After seeing Hazels state after the Tophimprint, the sense of urgency grows among the 'Community of Helpers'. A vid is sent out with instructions and also there is some serious codecracking action in the Mnema chat, with another vid as a result.
Xenondollars feels we shouldn't have decided to go with the drunk-flirt angle 'inciting him further' but he had already done all the damage before he ever got our vids. He had already finished all he had to drink and I can't see that he got any worse, he is actually much calmer in the respond vids. Those vids were made last minute, and I did it because nobody else in the chat had a working webcam at that time. I'm just tired of being scolded for that (like by Trager Maximoff) when I wasn't acting on my own, read the chat archives... The forumthread about Tophstrategy... Ah, whatever. :-D I have critizised others before for their tone of voice with Hazel and stuff! If I can dish it out I should be able to take it. And there is much more people that have said it was good strategy and well done so why should I care so much about one jealous person who can't get vid recommendations for his own vids? That's just silly.
The important thing is to make sure Hazel will survive and won't have to be permanently imprinted in my body. I'm sure she'll much rather stick with the one she got. Me too - maybe my life doesn't suck as much, after all... Or whatever. I could always let Frida Kalho have my body, she wouldn't mind it after the hell she lived through with her last one. She could have babies, finally...
Speculations of the route is going on i the Mnema chat and in the forum.
After seeing Hazels state after the Tophimprint, the sense of urgency grows among the 'Community of Helpers'. A vid is sent out with instructions and also there is some serious codecracking action in the Mnema chat, with another vid as a result.
Xenondollars feels we shouldn't have decided to go with the drunk-flirt angle 'inciting him further' but he had already done all the damage before he ever got our vids. He had already finished all he had to drink and I can't see that he got any worse, he is actually much calmer in the respond vids. Those vids were made last minute, and I did it because nobody else in the chat had a working webcam at that time. I'm just tired of being scolded for that (like by Trager Maximoff) when I wasn't acting on my own, read the chat archives... The forumthread about Tophstrategy... Ah, whatever. :-D I have critizised others before for their tone of voice with Hazel and stuff! If I can dish it out I should be able to take it. And there is much more people that have said it was good strategy and well done so why should I care so much about one jealous person who can't get vid recommendations for his own vids? That's just silly.
The important thing is to make sure Hazel will survive and won't have to be permanently imprinted in my body. I'm sure she'll much rather stick with the one she got. Me too - maybe my life doesn't suck as much, after all... Or whatever. I could always let Frida Kalho have my body, she wouldn't mind it after the hell she lived through with her last one. She could have babies, finally...
The spiritworld is in on this?
Is spirit posession catching? I have had some reoccuring dreams about Frida Kalho since I with my fellow Conspirits (The Others on this side) helped out some of The Others on the Other side... The Others are we who oppose the 'Grey' influences in the world, and stop teasing me for Greyphobia btw...(This painting is one of Kalhos that I put a selfportrait of me into...)
...It is possible that Orpheus hoax that R prime-labs pulled took some inspiration from Eskil Rutsch. They have shown an interest in his work, Agent Orange informs us.
Rutsch invented the technology Conspirare used to techmagicaly free the spirits from their inprisonment. Rutsch is not an Conspirit, we used his technology, and he doesn't concider it to be magic eighter. (Mr. Rutsch please don't send me an looong offended letter saying I've inplied it... Please!! I beg of You!)
But all in the community of helpers seem to agree that the Orpheus thing was only a way to mislead people like Mr. Bertcci that his daughter Celia would be brought back form the dead and the lead is a diversion from the truth, that would set our little (AI-girl?) Hazel free...
In this post I will post some links if someone, probably totally in vane wants to research them. Maybe you have heard some of the Swedes in the chat mention Prosopopeia? And you just want to know more? I'm warning you it's not easy...
EVP/ERF
INSTRUMENTAL TRANSCOMMUNICATION
Momentum
Speculate about Toph's vids!
Boomer Or Bill Murray...
Scans from transmission 37
...is Toph trying tomake a pass at the gnome? (and the chair!)
...or is he in fact smitten with Dr. Rose?
That gnome-stuff...
I first thought Toph is just drunkenly making a pass at everybody and everything, real or imagination. So I 'used' it when making my 'drunken foreign exchange student' flirt-vid. I don't mean to offend anyone, especially not Swedish girls but he seems to me as a internetporn surfer that has never actually touched boobs and has fantasies about wimen around him so I ran with it. Also I was encoruaged in the MNEMA chat at lingr to play drunk.
Maybe I should've played Dr. Rose but I just can't do her justice! I know my limitations.
...But I'm kinda hoping the gnome conversation was him reinacting something, and that more vids will show him talking with himself and revealing even more stuff stuff from the past.
Scans from transmission 37
...is Toph trying tomake a pass at the gnome? (and the chair!)
...or is he in fact smitten with Dr. Rose?
That gnome-stuff...
I first thought Toph is just drunkenly making a pass at everybody and everything, real or imagination. So I 'used' it when making my 'drunken foreign exchange student' flirt-vid. I don't mean to offend anyone, especially not Swedish girls but he seems to me as a internetporn surfer that has never actually touched boobs and has fantasies about wimen around him so I ran with it. Also I was encoruaged in the MNEMA chat at lingr to play drunk.
Maybe I should've played Dr. Rose but I just can't do her justice! I know my limitations.
...But I'm kinda hoping the gnome conversation was him reinacting something, and that more vids will show him talking with himself and revealing even more stuff stuff from the past.
You can have my body.
I decided to actually get some sleep tonight, or it was not a decision as much as a necessity… I felt I was turning into a zombie. Anyhow I had much to catch up on at 6.00 this morning when I woke up. The chat was soaring with speculation and activity to get some vids out before uploading time at midnight. Not many had webcams with visual and time was running out. Luckily I had discussed the strategy before and after watching Tophs vids and talking briefly in the chat with the community of helpers, I pretty much impro the three vids, had no time to rehearse over and over. And btw I think that too much rehearsing takes the life out of the preformance... But the strategy was in accordance to what has been discussed on the chat and in the forum at R prime-lab for some days (and nights!) now. I'm afraid the last one with the Vulcan hand signal isn't gonna air so to speak, not enought recs. Hopfully it's enough that I showed 'his' Spock action figure. and threatened to slap it around with a herring. (Yes actionfigure not doll!)
(I'm kinda thinking Topher is very much like my first boyfriend. So there is where my inspiration comes when I'm improvising. CosmiC used to make me watch cultmovies and original Star Trek, I mean the very first episodes, and splatter... Evil dead, such things. CosmiC's fav quote was this Bladerunner one.)
I now have reason to believe that Hazel is an AI and I remember my pun on ‘save Hazel’ in the chat the other day, when I pointed out the double meaning, that is that saving can be downloading Hazel, too. The complete papers that are identical with the ones Hazel scanned in before imprinting Toph has been found on the web, it concerns the AI subject. Intriging! In a privat conversation I suggested in jest to Shev that we might need a Voight-Campf test and he sent me a test that can be fun to do instead, but take another test if you are Swedish.
I also volunteered to be imprinted with Hazels AI if her current body freezes to death in that container on a ship going… where? ‘Goth’eborg, Sweden, I hope. Or even better, Ume, Sweden. I seriously would imprint Toph if he really is dead and doesn't want to be, I like him... (Changed my premature opinion of him, yes I did) And let’s face it… I don’t have a life anyways…
I have started to call Topher 'Toph' today and now i realise... it's almost like Thot. Well the offer still stands, I'm all for donating my body to Gods, have done so before (drawn down the Godess)... But will my mistress Freia (or Sarakka the samis call her) be jealous?
During the Marika/Maria case I saw his hand in things concerning Prosop. and he might be the same as Metatron. It's all in there in Crowleys 777 I think... long time since I read it, not really my cup of tea that ritualmagic. Btw, I also suspect that mr Chidambar is Toth too, so don't take me to seriously in this. If it's Thot we will never know cuz he is a trickster, Loke in asirmyth. Hermes trigamestros, Mercury... He can't be caught...
Btw, Chidambar777 went missing and so did Crogun whom we conspirits belived was one of us but it was not! The mistery thickens...
(I'm kinda thinking Topher is very much like my first boyfriend. So there is where my inspiration comes when I'm improvising. CosmiC used to make me watch cultmovies and original Star Trek, I mean the very first episodes, and splatter... Evil dead, such things. CosmiC's fav quote was this Bladerunner one.)
I now have reason to believe that Hazel is an AI and I remember my pun on ‘save Hazel’ in the chat the other day, when I pointed out the double meaning, that is that saving can be downloading Hazel, too. The complete papers that are identical with the ones Hazel scanned in before imprinting Toph has been found on the web, it concerns the AI subject. Intriging! In a privat conversation I suggested in jest to Shev that we might need a Voight-Campf test and he sent me a test that can be fun to do instead, but take another test if you are Swedish.
I also volunteered to be imprinted with Hazels AI if her current body freezes to death in that container on a ship going… where? ‘Goth’eborg, Sweden, I hope. Or even better, Ume, Sweden. I seriously would imprint Toph if he really is dead and doesn't want to be, I like him... (Changed my premature opinion of him, yes I did) And let’s face it… I don’t have a life anyways…
I have started to call Topher 'Toph' today and now i realise... it's almost like Thot. Well the offer still stands, I'm all for donating my body to Gods, have done so before (drawn down the Godess)... But will my mistress Freia (or Sarakka the samis call her) be jealous?
During the Marika/Maria case I saw his hand in things concerning Prosop. and he might be the same as Metatron. It's all in there in Crowleys 777 I think... long time since I read it, not really my cup of tea that ritualmagic. Btw, I also suspect that mr Chidambar is Toth too, so don't take me to seriously in this. If it's Thot we will never know cuz he is a trickster, Loke in asirmyth. Hermes trigamestros, Mercury... He can't be caught...
Btw, Chidambar777 went missing and so did Crogun whom we conspirits belived was one of us but it was not! The mistery thickens...
Sunday, February 22, 2009
The Player
There isn't much to gain
By living all the same way
The years just slip away
But it's too late then to play
If you live from day to day
You can play the game your own way
There's a million things to say
In a million places
For her it stays the same
Though a million towers have tumbled
And you can hear her pain
Voiced in a distant rumble
And when it starts to rain
All your monoliths will crumble
It's always been the same
Don't you feel a little bit humble?
She came up to me, she said:
'Wanna know a mistery?
There's a whole wide world for you to see
You're just a player in the game'
Well I've nothing left to say
Except take the time to ramble
In a million different ways
There's a million paths to travel
And when there's something in the way
Take your time please remember
There's hope yet in the rain
And a voice in distant thunder
The Levellers The Player
By living all the same way
The years just slip away
But it's too late then to play
If you live from day to day
You can play the game your own way
There's a million things to say
In a million places
For her it stays the same
Though a million towers have tumbled
And you can hear her pain
Voiced in a distant rumble
And when it starts to rain
All your monoliths will crumble
It's always been the same
Don't you feel a little bit humble?
She came up to me, she said:
'Wanna know a mistery?
There's a whole wide world for you to see
You're just a player in the game'
Well I've nothing left to say
Except take the time to ramble
In a million different ways
There's a million paths to travel
And when there's something in the way
Take your time please remember
There's hope yet in the rain
And a voice in distant thunder
The Levellers The Player
The quotes about memory and my reflections...
"It is singular how soon we lose the impression
of what ceases to be constantly before us.
A year impairs, a luster obliterates. There is
little distinct left without an effort of memory,
then indeed the lights are rekindled for a
moment -- but who can be sure that the
Imagination is not the torch-bearer?"
It's Lord Byron. "It is singular how soon we lose the impression
of what ceases to be constantly before us.
A year impairs, a luster obliterates. There is
little distinct left without an effort of memory,
then indeed the lights are rekindled for a
moment -- but who can be sure that the
Imagination is not the torch-bearer?"
It's Lord Byron.
of what ceases to be constantly before us.
A year impairs, a luster obliterates. There is
little distinct left without an effort of memory,
then indeed the lights are rekindled for a
moment -- but who can be sure that the
Imagination is not the torch-bearer?"
It's Lord Byron. "It is singular how soon we lose the impression
of what ceases to be constantly before us.
A year impairs, a luster obliterates. There is
little distinct left without an effort of memory,
then indeed the lights are rekindled for a
moment -- but who can be sure that the
Imagination is not the torch-bearer?"
It's Lord Byron.
Just a painting...
Fields of Gold is a painting I never managed to finish. I like it as it is. The mans face is impersonal, blank, detailed the tattooed hand pulling at his tie. I think this painting of mine relates to The Others fight against the Grey. Remembering, reqlaiming ones true deeply buried self from under all the obediance training surpressing it.
Confusing tv-shows with reality
I have to put it out there that people must have been very tired chatting tonight (I know I was) when they talk about carachters in the tvseries Dollhouse as if they were real and in realtime. The tvseries are based upon rumors and a 'Dollhouse' myth, see the thread in R prime-labs forum. If any of the Whedon fiction is close to what really happened, then at least the acter playing Topher and the acters playing in this tvseries isn't the actual people we are investigating - don't get confused about that...
Alfa and the rest can be out there, living normal lifes with false memories. Could be some of us in the loose knit 'community of helpers' that have been attracted to this case... To Hazel. We don't even know it ourselves yet! [I like this! It's very Philip K. Dick!]
On the other hand Hazels recent memories can be fake and she can be an active sent out from an actual Dollhouse existing right now. She is imprinted with Hazel-personality to find out more about something about the lab, the research... that they miss in the actual real Dollhouse (that the myth and the tv-show is based on) something that got lost when Dr. Rose disappeared, got wiped or whatever happened to her. In the tvseries the process has unsatisfactory failings. That can be a clue. Maybe the people behind the tv-series Dollhouse is on to something?
Lots of possibilitys are still open.
Alfa and the rest can be out there, living normal lifes with false memories. Could be some of us in the loose knit 'community of helpers' that have been attracted to this case... To Hazel. We don't even know it ourselves yet! [I like this! It's very Philip K. Dick!]
On the other hand Hazels recent memories can be fake and she can be an active sent out from an actual Dollhouse existing right now. She is imprinted with Hazel-personality to find out more about something about the lab, the research... that they miss in the actual real Dollhouse (that the myth and the tv-show is based on) something that got lost when Dr. Rose disappeared, got wiped or whatever happened to her. In the tvseries the process has unsatisfactory failings. That can be a clue. Maybe the people behind the tv-series Dollhouse is on to something?
Lots of possibilitys are still open.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Metaphysical speculations
I pay close attention to celestial phenomena, and I have noticed that when Hazel stepped into the lab a penumbral eqlipse of the full moon was taking place, 9'th of February. This event when total is called 'Blood Moon' and 'Blood on the Moon' when partial.
I was (mis?)informed of a conjuction of three planets at 22'th of February: Mars, Jupiter and Mercury. I still am unsure what info to trust. But does it matter? It remains to be seen... Hazel has been adviced to imprint Topher wedge during this Sunday.
As I have stated several times, important events in the Marika/Maria case always coincided with celestial phenomena. If this is the case in this case too(and just Blood on the Moon is not enough to convince the positivists) then that would confirm that what takes place now is yet another battle with the spiritworld involved. Or at least people using it's powers for their own agenda... Like the Grey.
The new info thought is that there is a conjuction, but at February the 24'th. That is also the day of the Carnivale. So much the better.
Also at March the 8'th Saturn will be at its closest to Earth. Saturn Return also comes into play here... For Topher, who is 29 y. o.
(...and when talking about planets I can't help but mention that the 'community of helpers' mourned Plutos lost status as a planet in the chat.)
I feel I have to adress this some way, but I feel it is very hard to do so at the R prime-lab forum when almost everyone involved are researchers, many of which are positivists. I am not among peers. I get some support from fellow Conspirits, though. Not surprising when one ponders what we have been through together before, in facing the Grey, the 93, and dealing with posession.
talking about the Grey... there was just something in the chat with the nick Grai that said nothing, and the other day '93' did the same. 93 has appeared here and there, too. in 13's vid. in the chat: said nothing, and when I questioned its nick it just left intantly. as a jest I speculated that 93 was maybe here to take Celias soul back where it belongs. 13 is the number of Death, HE WHO SPEAKS WITH CAPS LOCKED THE WHOLE TIME...
...that's not what I said about the number 13 in the chat before. I'm shifty? no but the numbers do shift their meaning in different contexts. remember Freia is the head of the Valkyria aswell as godess of love.
Just to add to the list of suspicius things and especially numbers corresponding with the Marika/Maria case: CHIDAMBAR777. 777 beeing the suspicious number. Why would he choose that? Why has his company got this unpayed contract and why does he do so much, helping us for free? He posts even when not beeing asked any question, draws attention to himself/herself??? I'm thinking it could be Thot again. I always suspected Thot of helping Conspirare out but also confusing us (the trixter he is) back in the Marika/Maria days... I think I hear Thot giggling behind the Mr. Chidambar mask. And btw, it's Carnival time! Everybody in masks!
I was (mis?)informed of a conjuction of three planets at 22'th of February: Mars, Jupiter and Mercury. I still am unsure what info to trust. But does it matter? It remains to be seen... Hazel has been adviced to imprint Topher wedge during this Sunday.
As I have stated several times, important events in the Marika/Maria case always coincided with celestial phenomena. If this is the case in this case too(and just Blood on the Moon is not enough to convince the positivists) then that would confirm that what takes place now is yet another battle with the spiritworld involved. Or at least people using it's powers for their own agenda... Like the Grey.
The new info thought is that there is a conjuction, but at February the 24'th. That is also the day of the Carnivale. So much the better.
Also at March the 8'th Saturn will be at its closest to Earth. Saturn Return also comes into play here... For Topher, who is 29 y. o.
(...and when talking about planets I can't help but mention that the 'community of helpers' mourned Plutos lost status as a planet in the chat.)
I feel I have to adress this some way, but I feel it is very hard to do so at the R prime-lab forum when almost everyone involved are researchers, many of which are positivists. I am not among peers. I get some support from fellow Conspirits, though. Not surprising when one ponders what we have been through together before, in facing the Grey, the 93, and dealing with posession.
talking about the Grey... there was just something in the chat with the nick Grai that said nothing, and the other day '93' did the same. 93 has appeared here and there, too. in 13's vid. in the chat: said nothing, and when I questioned its nick it just left intantly. as a jest I speculated that 93 was maybe here to take Celias soul back where it belongs. 13 is the number of Death, HE WHO SPEAKS WITH CAPS LOCKED THE WHOLE TIME...
...that's not what I said about the number 13 in the chat before. I'm shifty? no but the numbers do shift their meaning in different contexts. remember Freia is the head of the Valkyria aswell as godess of love.
Just to add to the list of suspicius things and especially numbers corresponding with the Marika/Maria case: CHIDAMBAR777. 777 beeing the suspicious number. Why would he choose that? Why has his company got this unpayed contract and why does he do so much, helping us for free? He posts even when not beeing asked any question, draws attention to himself/herself??? I'm thinking it could be Thot again. I always suspected Thot of helping Conspirare out but also confusing us (the trixter he is) back in the Marika/Maria days... I think I hear Thot giggling behind the Mr. Chidambar mask. And btw, it's Carnival time! Everybody in masks!
A calm day at R prime-lab
Nothing much has happened at R prime-lab yet today. It's still night in the US but anyhow, I don't expect it to be too lively today. Maybe the stir of newcomers asking for help in the forums, sending Hazel (honestly speaking) quite uninformed advice through vids... We must expect that some of those vids are going to merit reccomnedations high enough to be uploaded to the mobile lab and maybe cause confusion. Everybody gets one vote, no matter how long you have been working the case.
Maybe when it's closer in time to when the satellite link is up again, more of the familiar names are going to show up in the offsite chat... Because the next imprint requested by the highest rated recent vid (by Hack 2112) is asking for Hazel to upload Topher. I like what he's saying but not the tone of voice he uses towards Hazel, he sounds kinda condecending. And irritated when mentioning the gun, a point he's pressed before but not been obeyed at. I understand if she reacts with defience to that tone of voice. ...I would!
People in the chat has mentioned that tvshow Dollhouse again, that the last episode shed some light on Tophers profile. Since we don't get Dollhouse in Sweden, I'm anxious to fins out if I'm right about him. ...Not that I would judge anyone on how they are portrayed in a fictional tvproduction!
Many seem to want Topher to be on 'our' side because he feels like 'one of us' and they choose to ignore Dr. Roses assesment of him as beeing somewhat of a psychopath even. He views everything and everybody as a game. He himself is identifiying with a Mentat - that's from Herbert's Dune. They calculate without feelings much like human computors. I have tried to press this in chat yesterday. Soon enough we will find out?
What is 'our side' anyway? I'm not sure at all that we all have the same motivation in this. Some will play along with the majority to get votes on their vids but what do they really think? Sometimes I react badly to how they use words and diagnoses about people and I almost started a fight in the chat about it. It was bugging me how they seemed to be so convinced that doctors and their scientific tools are always right against the individual that nobody questioned Dr. Roses assessments of people. I was grateful when Daniel, defended and shared my wiev. I have a hard time expressing myself in a foreign language, as you can probably tell... :-)
Hm, I see now how my reasoning is flawed *giggle* I doubt Dr. Rose about Foxtrot beeing so antisocial but trust her (but mostly his own assessment of himself saying he's like a Mentat) when it comes to Topher...
Maybe when it's closer in time to when the satellite link is up again, more of the familiar names are going to show up in the offsite chat... Because the next imprint requested by the highest rated recent vid (by Hack 2112) is asking for Hazel to upload Topher. I like what he's saying but not the tone of voice he uses towards Hazel, he sounds kinda condecending. And irritated when mentioning the gun, a point he's pressed before but not been obeyed at. I understand if she reacts with defience to that tone of voice. ...I would!
People in the chat has mentioned that tvshow Dollhouse again, that the last episode shed some light on Tophers profile. Since we don't get Dollhouse in Sweden, I'm anxious to fins out if I'm right about him. ...Not that I would judge anyone on how they are portrayed in a fictional tvproduction!
Many seem to want Topher to be on 'our' side because he feels like 'one of us' and they choose to ignore Dr. Roses assesment of him as beeing somewhat of a psychopath even. He views everything and everybody as a game. He himself is identifiying with a Mentat - that's from Herbert's Dune. They calculate without feelings much like human computors. I have tried to press this in chat yesterday. Soon enough we will find out?
What is 'our side' anyway? I'm not sure at all that we all have the same motivation in this. Some will play along with the majority to get votes on their vids but what do they really think? Sometimes I react badly to how they use words and diagnoses about people and I almost started a fight in the chat about it. It was bugging me how they seemed to be so convinced that doctors and their scientific tools are always right against the individual that nobody questioned Dr. Roses assessments of people. I was grateful when Daniel, defended and shared my wiev. I have a hard time expressing myself in a foreign language, as you can probably tell... :-)
Hm, I see now how my reasoning is flawed *giggle* I doubt Dr. Rose about Foxtrot beeing so antisocial but trust her (but mostly his own assessment of himself saying he's like a Mentat) when it comes to Topher...
Friday, February 20, 2009
Bring Brink Back!
Right now it's beeing discussed weather or not to make Hazel imprint Cristopher Brink right away. Some people reason that this would be too stressful for her. I think she should go ahead! I have this whole night to help now. But only this night.
And we do all so want to meet the much discussed Topher. If he isn't already among us... Some paranoia has been going on in the chat today, in jest for the most time?
But Hazel is very stressed out about she beeing Celia. Maybe her original 'antisocial' (Pippi Longstocking?) nature will resurface from all this confusion. And as much as she has the right to her own body, it would make things hard for us trying to help her... She would be like 11 y.o. still. Or maybe she would become an amalgam of all the imprints, totally schitzoid... Hope not...
Now I said I would make a survivalvid for Hazel. It's Agent K's message. Best go do that then...
Done! It was two. Cuz i forgot to say one thing, about saving cigarettes until she needs them to vanquish hunger. (Also Agent K's advice.) I just made that vid for Bertucci about not smoking, and now one for his daughter to smoke! Wierd...
Probably shouldn't drink so much beer right now. But it's Friday and I'm in Love! I'm falling for every intelligent nerd that show me an ounce of respect, girl or boy. I know I shouldn't party when a girl is starving in a containerlab on a ship out on the big dark ocean. She won't have a beer for some time, but if she doesn't follow Agent K's instructions in the vid's I made maybe she won't have one ever again... Imagine that for a sec.
Agent K shows us how tracking a sattelite is possible: http://www.n2yo.com/
Those vids are sure taking time...
Oh, I don't know if I can stay awake to see if anything else will happen tonight... My back hurts. Now it's been 24 hours since I sleept, I have to take a nap at least...
And we do all so want to meet the much discussed Topher. If he isn't already among us... Some paranoia has been going on in the chat today, in jest for the most time?
But Hazel is very stressed out about she beeing Celia. Maybe her original 'antisocial' (Pippi Longstocking?) nature will resurface from all this confusion. And as much as she has the right to her own body, it would make things hard for us trying to help her... She would be like 11 y.o. still. Or maybe she would become an amalgam of all the imprints, totally schitzoid... Hope not...
Now I said I would make a survivalvid for Hazel. It's Agent K's message. Best go do that then...
Done! It was two. Cuz i forgot to say one thing, about saving cigarettes until she needs them to vanquish hunger. (Also Agent K's advice.) I just made that vid for Bertucci about not smoking, and now one for his daughter to smoke! Wierd...
Probably shouldn't drink so much beer right now. But it's Friday and I'm in Love! I'm falling for every intelligent nerd that show me an ounce of respect, girl or boy. I know I shouldn't party when a girl is starving in a containerlab on a ship out on the big dark ocean. She won't have a beer for some time, but if she doesn't follow Agent K's instructions in the vid's I made maybe she won't have one ever again... Imagine that for a sec.
Agent K shows us how tracking a sattelite is possible: http://www.n2yo.com/
Those vids are sure taking time...
Oh, I don't know if I can stay awake to see if anything else will happen tonight... My back hurts. Now it's been 24 hours since I sleept, I have to take a nap at least...
Agent Orange put me up to it...
I got an email from Agent Orange saying 'Something has awakened'.
'Something' was a satelliteuplink to a mobile lab and it revealed a girl trapped in the lab.
I found other Conspirits already involved and helping to figure out how to save her, so I jumped in. Presented myself: "I'm another Swedish Conspirit. A LIS drop-out. Inqisitive. Imaginative. Impulsive. And yeah; 'I'd rather be hiking'..."
started to research lots of things.
http://mchalepac.lcsc.k12.in.us/c-brink.html
1)his name is Christopher Brink and
2)he is born in 1981,
3)he's a trekkie
4)he's a selfproclaimed computor nerd
5)his email is lonegunner1701@hotmail.com. Tophers tattoo says 1701, too.
...well, I was barking up some of the wrong trees at the beginning? Nobody thinks it could be him. Strange tho' to find someone so simular...
...I feel for this girl Hazel even if I don't know if she's really a clone or there's some other kind of deception going on here. the info is that she's grown up in a fosterhome, as I have, and she has a fear of beeing shut in because they used to punish her that way when she was a child. also she tries to find out more about her biomum. I remember going through my bioparents appartment after they both passed, and what mystery! and angst.
I recorded a vid 4 Hazel, she asked us to tell us a little about ourselves and provide some entertainment. I showed her my geeky collectors items. I can just imagine how it feels to be trapped in there alone... But I think the one who got the vid was the Bertucci imprint. Maybe he thought I was his daughter Celia or something, the imprints are often very dizzy and in a suggestible state.
...To be honest my real motivation is my wish to really stick it to the Grey one more time! the bigger picture here is that they are, true to form, trying to take control.
More info at:
SEARCHME/Dollhouse Joss Whedon
Mnema R prime lab
What or time is it or Where?
The Company P
Lyssna!
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'Something' was a satelliteuplink to a mobile lab and it revealed a girl trapped in the lab.
I found other Conspirits already involved and helping to figure out how to save her, so I jumped in. Presented myself: "I'm another Swedish Conspirit. A LIS drop-out. Inqisitive. Imaginative. Impulsive. And yeah; 'I'd rather be hiking'..."
started to research lots of things.
http://mchalepac.lcsc.k12.in.us/c-brink.html
1)his name is Christopher Brink and
2)he is born in 1981,
3)he's a trekkie
4)he's a selfproclaimed computor nerd
5)his email is lonegunner1701@hotmail.com. Tophers tattoo says 1701, too.
...well, I was barking up some of the wrong trees at the beginning? Nobody thinks it could be him. Strange tho' to find someone so simular...
...I feel for this girl Hazel even if I don't know if she's really a clone or there's some other kind of deception going on here. the info is that she's grown up in a fosterhome, as I have, and she has a fear of beeing shut in because they used to punish her that way when she was a child. also she tries to find out more about her biomum. I remember going through my bioparents appartment after they both passed, and what mystery! and angst.
I recorded a vid 4 Hazel, she asked us to tell us a little about ourselves and provide some entertainment. I showed her my geeky collectors items. I can just imagine how it feels to be trapped in there alone... But I think the one who got the vid was the Bertucci imprint. Maybe he thought I was his daughter Celia or something, the imprints are often very dizzy and in a suggestible state.
...To be honest my real motivation is my wish to really stick it to the Grey one more time! the bigger picture here is that they are, true to form, trying to take control.
More info at:
SEARCHME/Dollhouse Joss Whedon
Mnema R prime lab
What or time is it or Where?
The Company P
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